Warning: I'm in a real fcuked up mood while typing this post. (It's some complicated fcuked up situation which I can't be bothered to tell you all.)
But I feel better after ranting everything out.. I don't know why the hell things end up like that. I faced a lot of "versus" in my life which makes me even more pissed off.
Friends that think of only fun vs. friends that actually care about others' feelings.
Friends forever vs. let me be your girlfriend for at least one day.
Damn wna see an idol, no matter what vs. i'm lazy to squeeze with a crowd just to see an idol.
I need cash & i'll work for it vs. i'm lazy to work so I'll stop spending $.
I don't mind retaining vs. WTF, I'll just go poly.
You see.. I have so many decisions to make in my fcukin' life & i don't really wna go about thinkin' about. I just wna go with the flow, just let things happen naturally but yet, in the end, I still have to do some decision-making. I don't ever regret any decisions I've made so far, I mean it's my choice what. But now, I just don't know.. things are going so so so wrong. Studying jc, studying a chinese subj combination might most probably be the stupidest decision I've made EVER. Now, I'm even doubting whether I've got the right friends. Wtf, fml.
I just want to bring back the old times, whereby friends standby me even if I give shitty tantrums, times whereby they know what NOT to do so as not to pissed me off, times whereby they're know I'm going to flipped if they don't leave me alone & even those times when they let me indulge in my emo mood. Why in the world is this not happening again? Yes, I'll be the most difficult friend you've to deal with.. so if you can't deal with my personality just fcukin' fcuked off from my life.
So anyway.................... the
greatest decision would be:
Okay, tmr will be a better day, just live vs. *jumps off building*
