Dreams, just tuned to them.

Lunching right now.  :)

Busy all morning travelling!  :o  Long story that you probably won't be interested in, so no elaboration on it.  BUT something that I want to blog about.  Do you know how strange it is when you're in a packed mrt & suddenly there's this random couple making out yet there's a hunk/babe right beside you?  :x  It's a strange feeling & i swear almost everytime this happen the person beside me seems to read my mind & start fidgeting.  It's really really really strange got a not?

I'm not against public affection, I'm just jotting down this strange feeling.. for memory's sake?  :/

Touched by an angel - sezari, playing on radio.  Sylvia should win sg idol manszxc although sezairi did put in a lot of effort in the finals but still.. Sylvia is much better in terms of looks & talent!  Also, I've been listen to radio almost everyday since I've started working & being a dj sounds easy 'kay?  Mostly inspired by rozz, she's like a totally cool hot chick even though she's thirty!  Okay, cool hot chick seems so oxymoron but whatever.  :)

Tell me, does she look thirty?  -.-

Picture taken from http://987rozz.files.wordpress.com/

Tuesday is really my emo day.

Heys peepo, bored during lunch time.

2009 is ending.. full of events this year.

Life really doesn't stop for anybody.

I just forwarded chain msg to kill boredom but not helping much, wth?  -.-  I'm so shagged all morning 'cause shopping ytd really tires me.  My shoes were killing me ytd so I just had to get new ones.  I keep buying shoes/slippers against my will.  It's either the shoe break down or kill my feet, waste of money can.  :(  Okay, so I'm really tired all morning, even though I slept in the mrt all the way to sembawang then alight the next stop.  Keep yawning like no tmr too.  Tiredness become emoness, why like that eh?  :/

Currently receiving msgs with welcome 'cause of the chain msg, hahahas.  So many 'welcome's in my inbox worr.  o.o

Yeah, soooo damn random.  What to do now?  So many work but no mood for it.  Ending work like 4 hours ltr.. will I survive today?  :x

Feel like taking leave this thurs for no particular reason, should I?

Shopping keeps me happy, only shopping.

Yesterday was probably one of my unluckiest day except for the escape theme park part.  I don't wish to elaborate so omfg luh.  :(  I'll will update the escape theme park part @ feelthewords.wordpress.com later on today or maybe even tmr.  Those who're interested can go read about the escape theme park thingy & really, don't read also nevermind.

I'm so stressed out right now 'cause I forgot to bring my hp out!  D:  I totally forget I was charging it.  Muddlehead me.  :s  I've no idea how to contact my aunt 'cause she's always too busy to pick up her hp.  I'll definitely have trouble contacting Jiayi, who I'll be going out with after work.  Awwws.. feel like playing pool with classmates but working leh.  :/  When can I stop working?  I guess shopping is the only thing the keeps me happy at the moment.  I keep having negative thoughts till.. even someone had to use shopping to encourage me.  Rather funny actually.  :)  Maybe, just maybe whatever I'm doing is wrong but at least it makes me feel alive.. & if it's really wrong, sorry.. 

Anyway, Im.. soooooo borrrrreeeedddd offffffff worrrrrrrkkkkk.  -.-

Okays, not that bored.  Meeting syu for lunch/dinner, hope she's not late 'cause we can't contact each other.  :/

Time, please pass by faster..

What's wrong with having fun? :o

What's wrong with having fun?  I just don't comprehend the fuss over having fun.

Anyway,

I want a lappy/computer for my

 OWN usuage!  >:(

The reason is the feel.

Hehehes, went to fep with this girl after work.  :)

I feel like sharing something today 'cause of the question she asked me a while ago.  I used to hate guys like mad when I'm in primary school but that one guy changed everything.  I can't even imagine what it would be like before I like that guy.  It may be just a crush, just another stupid crush & I know everyone will tell me to get over it already but some memories don't just fade away.  The reason?  I don't really know but I just do like him.  It's the feel.  Sweet nothings & everything else can never substitute that feeling.  If I could choose all over again, I know I'll still like him.

Yeah, go ahead & say lame or something.  I can't be bothered.  :)  I can't believe I wrote the above paragraph.  -.-

Xmas party tmr.  Yayness, pressies!  :D 

Byebye for now.. :)

One emo love song is not enough.

Work is going to end in half an hour!  I'm slacking for the last half an hour but so what manszxc?  :/  Carrying those boxes really wore me out leh.  :(

Joke on radio - what do sheeps say during christmas?  Answer:  Meeehh-rry Christmas!  Okay, random.  ._.  Anyway, I haven't got my pay yet.  I'm going to ask for it tmr 'cause I'm dying to shop!  It's been like one week w/o shopping, wth!  >:(  I reeeeaaaaaaaalllllllllllyyyyyyy wna go shopping..  Idc if I've gone shopping like so many times this holiday.  Shopping is just a girl thing, my kind of thing.  I've earned that money so why can't I spend it?  Spare me from your lectures already, I do what I like.  :)  I'm going to watch hi my sweetheart when I reach home.  So excited for it, hehehes.  Ytd watched the latest episode of momo love, so niceeee..  *hearts*

I've nothing much to ramble on alr so byebye!  :)



To someone who probably won't be reading this, even if that someone reads this, he/she won't know I'm talking about him/her:

I love the way you make me laugh.  It's so motiveless, so different.  It's amazing how that is possible when you are just a friend.  I guess that's the reason why some people choose friends over lovers.  :)

For your entertainment.

Adam Lambert is so hot manszxc.  Well, afterall gays are hot.  c[:  I'm so totally addicted to 'For your entertainment' by Adam Lambert!  It's actually quite a sick song but I don't know why I'm addicted to it.  Hehehes.  :)  Work is boring though, radio is keeping me awake but I'm not in the working mood lately.  Maybe it's because I didn't receive my pay yet.  *sighs*



:D :D :D
Addictive..

Gosh, I want my pay. :(

I used to be lovedrunk but now I'm hungover.

I love you forever but now it's over.

LOL, lovedrunk playing on radio so lovin' that song even so long long ago song. Hehehehes.

This picture make me laugh yesterday till I was in a good mood.

I'm not fat.. I just think so but I'll stop thinking that way 'cause I believe somebody won't lie to me, there's no reason to lie to me anyway.  :D  Yay, that 'I'm fat' feeling is slowly but surely fading away.  Wx & Amira will be overseas this weekend so no one will be going out with me this weekend.  Sad got a not?  D:  Due to the boredom that is expected this weekend, I'll be working to while my time away.  :(  Ahhhhhhhhhs, sadsadsad 'cause work during weekends is not exactly my idea of fun. 

Byebyebye yo. 

Someday I'll know.

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You cant have everything

Dont you take chances
You might feel the pain
Dont you love in vain
cause love wont set you free

I cant stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Dont care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just cant let go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear

But all these days
They feel like they're they're same
Just different faces
Different place
Get me out of here

I cant stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Dont care about all the pain in front of me
Im just trying to be happy

Oh, happy
Oh

So when it turns that I can see???
This rope??
Victim??
Dont say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Dont care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy.

Sorry if the lyrics are wrong. :/


I think this is such a emo song, why is it called happy? :( Okay, actually I know why, 'cause she want the guy & herself to be happy. The truth is, it's a good emo kind of song.. :)

I still think I'm fat, I'm going bonkerszxc! :o I didn't intend to eat today but I'm kind of hungry already, goshhhhh! Most probably meeting syu after work for lunch+dinner so I'll just wait until then to have a nice meal and that's all for today. No more food for me. I don't even know why I'm torturin' myself by not eating whenever I feel like it when I'm thin. It's the 'I feel fat' feeling. So suckszxc..

Work time, adios.

B.shoppin'.

I'm bored whenever I'm home so all I do is watch drama, facebook & blogshop.  I've watched hi my sweetheart latest episode, not that 'LOL!' leh.  :( This just makes me emo-er.  Now I've no idea whether I should purchase contact lens again.  I've contacted the optician & there are dail disposable coloured lens!  Sound pretty fun, idk why. :)  I'll only know the prices tmr so I can't just decide yet.  After blogshopping, I feel like purchasing contact lens online 'cause I feel it way way way cheaper! I want turquoise one!

Not my emo day but I'm emo, damn!

D:

D:

D:

Emo 'cause..

megotmanyworkthatisnotcompleted. 
megotnomoremoneytosplurge. 
mewnatalktothatidiotbutithinkishouldnt. 
mewantthathighwaistshortsfrombugisbutitdidnotfitme. 
mecraveforcoldstuffbuticanteatitcauseofmenses. 
methinkilikesomeonebutidontwanttolikeanyone. 
mehavenoideawhetheriwillgraduatefromblss. 
mefeelfatthoughiknowimnotfatatall. 
meishjusttrynatobehappybutfailed. 

mehatethemetoday.


Spacebar is not spoiled.  I know I shouldn't bother people with my emoness, I'm not the only one with problems, I know.. but I can't help ranting on my blog.

One less lonely girl, yes me. :D

Hi peepo!  I'm not lonely, yayness!  :D

Lunch time right now.  Haven't been slacking all morning so I'm feeling kind of shagged uh.  :/  Well, have been thinking alot lately for no particular reason.  Since the 'O's, all people ever talk about are friends & relationships, especially relationships.  Sick of that topic but somehow when we get started on that topic, it's neverending.  We just keep ranting on and on and on.. and you get the idea right?  It's painful to remember some things but sometimes pain makes me feel alive.  Maybe I've been keeping some things to myself, maybe I've been pretending to be okay when I'm not but some things are better left unspoken, no?  :/

My plans for next week are mainly shopping at the f21 that wx told me.  :)  Well, after christmas going out with Jiayi again to Bugis.  We love that place!  Hehehes.  Xmas party next week too, will it be fun?  o.o

$200 gone in just two days.  :(  Awwwws..

Bugis craze! *hearts*

I'm so starving but I'm so lazy to go buy lunch.  :(

Yesterday I went with Amira to Bugis to shop.  The whole trip was v.full of talk about various topics and we even missed our stop on the way to Bugis 'cause the MRT cheated our feelings!  It kept blinking at City Hall on the map thingy & we both naively believed it till later.  Sheesh!  -.-  My first time shopping so fast and I think the same goes for Amira but we were happy with our many purchases.  I don't really know whether I'll be using the stuff I bought yesterday but it's mad love!  :D  Proceeded to Iluma & we saw Jean Danker & Sezairi, lucky!  :)

After work I'll be going to Bugis with Jiayi & maybe Agnes.  I don't mind going again, there's just so many things I could buy at Bugis, hehehes.  :)  If you still don't know, I'm currently working, kinda bored.  One hour passed since I've reached my workplace & I only completed filing for one file.  Sighs..  :/

Maybe I should just skipped lunch & just eat more during dinner.  Nothing more to rant about, bye!  :)

Something that I just can't describe.

I had the weirdest thought ytd, weirdest ever.  I don't know why I thought about it but it's mad ridiculous & I'm not even bothering to blog about it for I don't even want to think about that stupid, ridiculous thought.  I'm currently @ work though it's a Saturday but it's okay 'cause no one jio me out anyway.  :(  I've been given the keys so I can go to work anytime & end work anytime, how cool is that?  :D  I intended to work till really late & maybe go home with Syuhadah who ends her work @ 10pm but.. I'm sort of slacking already.  Oopsy?  :)  I've tons of work to be busy with till Wednesday when my aunt will be giving me more work I guess.  :/  Work isn't too bothersome but it's Saturday & I wished I was shopping/going out with friends/slacking at home & etc.  That's what people do, when they have something, they want something else.  It's just human nature right?  :)

Okay, facing thousands and thousands of papers/boxes/files which are constantly reminding me to not slack & work.  -.-  Byebye all, whoever that reads my blog, which I don't really know who.  Oh whatever..   

At work, slacking. :o

Yesh, I'm currently slacking @ work.  I've no idea what to do okay?  :/  It's like I've to do packing and stuff but there's not enough boxes.  Sheeesh!  -.-  I've been dragging it for as long as I can till my aunt comes to settle it but she will be only coming on sat, what now?  TT  Bored to tears, ahhhhhhhhhs..!  :(

I really appreciate having this job but sometimes I wished for freedom to do whatever I want on weekdays, to wake up at whatever time, go out at whatever timing & even just slacking at home once in a while would be just fine.  Sadly, my debts to my parents & my shopping needs make work something neccessay since I need the cash oh-so-badly.  :(  Well, at least it's flexible hours for my work..

Tmr I'll be going to my cousin house for baking & maybe shopping.  Should I ask her to pay for that wallet?  Hehehes, me so bad.  :)  Okay, I had better find some work to do now, tatas!  :)

Don't get all desperate, 'kay?

Some people are just freaking desperate.  I don't know why but I feel like LOL now.  :DDD  Whatever, just something that I shouldn't bother myself with. These few days, I don't feel bored or blank or weird.  I just totally got used to the fact that I do not like anyone.  It's cool, never felt like this for damn long.  Probably four years back, this feelin' that I've forgotten during secondary school.  It all started when I tripped & fall into love & never learn to stand up from that fall.  Until now.  :)

Oh yes, pimples got way way serious & decided to seek medical advice.  Went to the doc's after work with my aunt.  Less than 10 sentences from the specialist cost $213.  SHOCKING!  :O  Hopefully, my pimples will get better. I'm even forcing myeself to drink plain water to get rid of the pimples! BENXIAOJIE H-A-T-E PLAIN WATER!  :'(  No choice, for my own good.  I can't believe myself!  D:

Work tmr.. filing! It's going to bore me like mad! >:(  I feel like skipping work & go shopping instead.  Awwwws, not v.possible 'cause I'm working too little hours to meet my shopping needs.  Hehehes.. c[:

Work?  Shop?  *ponders*

Feeling out of sorts.

I'm feeling out of sorts since I woke up. But I really don't know how to rant about it.

What's wrong with me? :/

Friends VS Lovers.

This song declares that friends are way better than lovers. ^^

It's a weird feeling.

Heys peepo! :) I don't usually get a chance to blog here but since I'm the only one at home, I CAN blog! :) *happy* They went out to takeaway dinner.  I don't really know what's the reason as in my family, we usually don't do takeaways but whatever it is, I'm happy to eat outside food instead of boring homecooked dishes.  Oh yeah, I did a terribly stupid thing today.  I'm supposed to be at work today but since I was shagged, I just gave an excuse of not feeling well so as to skip work today.  Stupid right?  :(  I regret it when I woke up @ about 12pm.  It's already too late anyw.  My aunt didn't even replied that sms of me not feeling well.  I wonder if she's pissed off by the actions, scary.  :s  I swear I didn't do it on purpose, it's just that at the moment, I didn't felt like going to work.  Work is great and all but it's the travelling & waking up that bores me so much..  I feel so guilty for my lack of responsibility alright?  :(

My head hurts badly right now.  I don't know why too, maybe I slept too long?  :x  Wasted my day by watching dramas & playing facebook games.  Work is much more meaningful know.  Guilty like shit.  D:  Oh well, I can only make up to my aunt by working more hours tmr?  Or maybe sacrifice few hours during weekends to work?  Ahhhhhhhhhhhs, guilty!

Also, what bothers me is not liking anyone.  It's a weird feeling, not to like anyone.  You see, usually when I like someone, I'll be constantly thinking about that person and whatever things that is related to him.  Sometimes, loving someone drives me crazy but it there's like something for me to think about.  Now that, I've stop loving, I feel weird.  It is the emptiness within me that makes me feel weird 'cause I've nothing to think about already.  Then, my mind gets clearer & I start to concentrate & feel more.  That may be why I felt scared during case 39, or I might possibly just be paranoid.

Ending this post here 'cause my head hurts.  I don't know what to do later.  *sighs*  Nevermind, ciaos!  :)