I've had enough.

I HATE MY HOME!

Awhile ago, I got bored & wanted to go out even since not a single person in my house is willing to entertain me & my lappy is really dead so wth.  The stupid, annoying part is that my parents refused to let me out.  How old am I already, omg?  I'm fcuking sixteen & no one will want to rape me or anything lahhhhh!  >:(  Of course I threw my tantrums like, it's just going out what.  If anyone should feel scared it's me, not them!  If I don't feel scared and I want to go out it's my own problem right?  If anything happens, I'll just bear the consequences luh, no big deal.  Did they really think I'm so dumb to go out myself, of course got ask friends!  :(  Why can't I be the only child so that I can get the computer & no one will snatch away my comp.  Thus, I won't be bored & wna go out when it's near midnight.  Seriously, life suckszxc.  D:  When I'm down & stuff, about half of the peepo I know is sleeping!  What the heck okay?  :(  :(  :(

I'm still wearing shorts & tee, all ready to go out.  Asked jq, pc & fadhli about when gp mac is going to open but they freaking did not know?!  Now, there's some maple conversation taking place between them & I'm in no position to comment.  I feel so emo-ish, knn manszxc.  I'm intending to stay over @ agnes' house but I don't intend to tell my parents.  It sounds like leaving home eh?  I don't care at all anymore.  They all suck for not letting me do whatever I want to.  Shit them & what do they know really?  :/

I'm also having conversation with amirah btw.  I introduced her some videos.  I think it's rathr entertaining but irwin say it's funny but not 'LOL'.  Awwws..  You may view them if you want to.

















If not funny don't come find me.  LOL.  :)

Which mac to go to lehhs?  :/

Love just won't let me walk away.

I've been wanting to blog all this time but my brother was beside me.  They have no idea I've a blogger blog.  LOL.  I can't blog with them around, awws.  I'm tryna to blog in proper english but somehow I don't think it will be successful.  :(  I went out with wx today.  Yayness, 'cause I'll be bored if I'm gome.  My lappy is laggy like crap and if my brother wanted to use computer, I've no computer to play facebook.  D:  My life is sad yeah.  Not to mention complications in love life.  I want to have a simpler love life like 'mo mo ren'(somebody), hehehes.  It's of course much more boring but it's less painful.  I tried to forget and tried to cast aside my feelings.  I tried to occupy myself with other matters but memories still haunt me.  Love just won't let me walk away right?  D:  I find it so difficult to blog now.  Keep pausing 'cause my siblings are sooooo nosy!

Should I go check my contact len tmr?  :/

Post next time when my siblings are NOT home.  I wish I'm the only child..  :(

Fickleminded-ness kills.

One thing I really hate about myself - being fickleminded!  D:

Those close to me, like Aishah & Syuhadah, should know that I can be really fickleminded.  This time round, it's about me deciding whether I should go to chalet a not.  From the start, as in, before the first day of chalet, I was really excited about going to the chalet.  Afterall, it's the last time 4e9 can have fun tgt.  Well, I've lost the I-want-to-go-chalet-damn-much mood.  I'm lazy to bring clothes, lazy to take mrt, lazy yet I want to play wild wild wet.  In fact, I still want to.  :x  I guess it's okay to give it a miss now, rainy season anyway.  After tons of sms-es with jq & ty, I've finally decided NOT to go chalet.  I'm sure everyone at the chalet is enjoying themselves & I could jolly well enjoy myself at home too.  It's about time I continue with endless japanese & taiwan dramas!  :D  The taiwan drama - hi my sweetheart, is v.funny!  OMGOMGOMG.  With Luo Zhi Xiang & Rainie Yang, that taiwan drama is definitely worth the watch.  It keeps me laughing most of the time.  LOL.  Love those two actors!  *hearts*

Jq just msg-ed me they're going to chalet already.  Awws, hate to be left out for such class outings.  Should I.. okayokay, I should not be fickleminded anymore!  :(  No class chalet for me.  I might be spending the day at jp with my sister, haven't really decide.  I hate decisions to the core!  D:

Back to my dramas, keeps me entertained.  :)  Excited for saturday with wx!  I still have not decide - black ankle boots or brown clutch bag.  :/  Heck care already, shopping just makes me excited!  :DDD

Ciaos!  :)

The pain that no one can take away.

I'm determined to blog in PROPER english!

Today is the first day of class chalet & I didn't went even though I've already packed for it.  Sheesh!  >:(  It all started when my lazy maid wanted to iron the clothes I've packed at the very last minute(ytd).  It was then that she found out the iron was spoilt!  D:  I was seriously upset about it & got really emo & stuff.  Forget the iron part, my parents don't even care if I wear those crumpled clothes out.  I was f.pissed with them & everybody.  I was so upset that I cried.  I mean, to most of you, this is like a trivial matter & you might not even mind wearing the crumpled clothes out or whatsoever.  Likewise, if there's really no choice then I'll wear those crumpled clothes out too but what really disappoints me is my family.  We don't really care for each other anymore.  Everyone is just doing their own stuff, no communication unless neccessary(e.g. taking allowance from parents).  I find it sad, I find it pathetic.  However, after hours of crying, I realised it's pointless & there's no way to salvage this situation.  Just let it continue.. this pathetic state of my family.

Somehow, they got my clothes ironed with a spare iron, which they were lazy to find ytd.  Whatever.  It was really too late & I felt really crappy in the morning.  Idw why, probably due to the crying?  :/  I was damn moodless & emo.  I got out of bed like 4pm, with no intention to talk to anyone.  Well, I did in the end, I had to eat right?  -.-

I spent my day on my laggy lappy as my brother is back to mapling.  I cannot use his desktop anymore!  *bawls*  I want to go saren's house play.  LOL.  I'm not emo anymore, life goes on.  Money makes the world goes round.  With the money saved by not going chalet, I'll definitely have much more to spend on other stuff.  YAY!  :D  Actually part of me kind of wna go wild wild wet, hehehes.  See my mood tmr, may go with jq.

I'm super duper happy 'cause at last I can rant on and on about my feelings.  Yes, I've a not-so-perfect family but so what?  I believe every family got their own problems so think whatever you want to.  I love blogging!  :D  Anyw, I just receive some smses & it's sooooo suspicious.  :o

Byebye, till next time!  :)

'O's are going to end!

Hello people.

'O's are going to end very very soon.  I decided to use back blogger as my main blog but I still freakin' love my wordpress & onsugar blogs.  I believe in future, I'll have trouble deciding which blog to actually blog in!  Hahahas, whatever it is, blogger is still the best yeah?  :D  Just a temporay layout but I seem to like it truckloads already!  OMG, I just miss usin' blogger so damn much manzxc.  "3  I don't want to talk about the 'O's. not that I've done too badly or whatever, it's just that I'm super sick of the topic.  It's always about the 'O's this and that so just freakin' stop those talk 'cause it's finally going to over 'kay?  :)

Tmr I'm going to shop till my legs break for all I care.  I want to buy loads of things & I hope my mum is in the mood for shoppin' with me tmr.  Currently addicted to high songs & it makes me, well, h-i-g-h.  LOL.  That's what music can do, it's just weird in a super cool way & stop denying it. 

I'm not into one of my crazy blogging moods so I'll just end off here.  Bye.  :D

I'll never have the guts to say 'I don't love you like I did ytd'.. or maybe i still love you?