It's a weird feeling.

Heys peepo! :) I don't usually get a chance to blog here but since I'm the only one at home, I CAN blog! :) *happy* They went out to takeaway dinner.  I don't really know what's the reason as in my family, we usually don't do takeaways but whatever it is, I'm happy to eat outside food instead of boring homecooked dishes.  Oh yeah, I did a terribly stupid thing today.  I'm supposed to be at work today but since I was shagged, I just gave an excuse of not feeling well so as to skip work today.  Stupid right?  :(  I regret it when I woke up @ about 12pm.  It's already too late anyw.  My aunt didn't even replied that sms of me not feeling well.  I wonder if she's pissed off by the actions, scary.  :s  I swear I didn't do it on purpose, it's just that at the moment, I didn't felt like going to work.  Work is great and all but it's the travelling & waking up that bores me so much..  I feel so guilty for my lack of responsibility alright?  :(

My head hurts badly right now.  I don't know why too, maybe I slept too long?  :x  Wasted my day by watching dramas & playing facebook games.  Work is much more meaningful know.  Guilty like shit.  D:  Oh well, I can only make up to my aunt by working more hours tmr?  Or maybe sacrifice few hours during weekends to work?  Ahhhhhhhhhhhs, guilty!

Also, what bothers me is not liking anyone.  It's a weird feeling, not to like anyone.  You see, usually when I like someone, I'll be constantly thinking about that person and whatever things that is related to him.  Sometimes, loving someone drives me crazy but it there's like something for me to think about.  Now that, I've stop loving, I feel weird.  It is the emptiness within me that makes me feel weird 'cause I've nothing to think about already.  Then, my mind gets clearer & I start to concentrate & feel more.  That may be why I felt scared during case 39, or I might possibly just be paranoid.

Ending this post here 'cause my head hurts.  I don't know what to do later.  *sighs*  Nevermind, ciaos!  :)

I've had enough.

I HATE MY HOME!

Awhile ago, I got bored & wanted to go out even since not a single person in my house is willing to entertain me & my lappy is really dead so wth.  The stupid, annoying part is that my parents refused to let me out.  How old am I already, omg?  I'm fcuking sixteen & no one will want to rape me or anything lahhhhh!  >:(  Of course I threw my tantrums like, it's just going out what.  If anyone should feel scared it's me, not them!  If I don't feel scared and I want to go out it's my own problem right?  If anything happens, I'll just bear the consequences luh, no big deal.  Did they really think I'm so dumb to go out myself, of course got ask friends!  :(  Why can't I be the only child so that I can get the computer & no one will snatch away my comp.  Thus, I won't be bored & wna go out when it's near midnight.  Seriously, life suckszxc.  D:  When I'm down & stuff, about half of the peepo I know is sleeping!  What the heck okay?  :(  :(  :(

I'm still wearing shorts & tee, all ready to go out.  Asked jq, pc & fadhli about when gp mac is going to open but they freaking did not know?!  Now, there's some maple conversation taking place between them & I'm in no position to comment.  I feel so emo-ish, knn manszxc.  I'm intending to stay over @ agnes' house but I don't intend to tell my parents.  It sounds like leaving home eh?  I don't care at all anymore.  They all suck for not letting me do whatever I want to.  Shit them & what do they know really?  :/

I'm also having conversation with amirah btw.  I introduced her some videos.  I think it's rathr entertaining but irwin say it's funny but not 'LOL'.  Awwws..  You may view them if you want to.

















If not funny don't come find me.  LOL.  :)

Which mac to go to lehhs?  :/

Love just won't let me walk away.

I've been wanting to blog all this time but my brother was beside me.  They have no idea I've a blogger blog.  LOL.  I can't blog with them around, awws.  I'm tryna to blog in proper english but somehow I don't think it will be successful.  :(  I went out with wx today.  Yayness, 'cause I'll be bored if I'm gome.  My lappy is laggy like crap and if my brother wanted to use computer, I've no computer to play facebook.  D:  My life is sad yeah.  Not to mention complications in love life.  I want to have a simpler love life like 'mo mo ren'(somebody), hehehes.  It's of course much more boring but it's less painful.  I tried to forget and tried to cast aside my feelings.  I tried to occupy myself with other matters but memories still haunt me.  Love just won't let me walk away right?  D:  I find it so difficult to blog now.  Keep pausing 'cause my siblings are sooooo nosy!

Should I go check my contact len tmr?  :/

Post next time when my siblings are NOT home.  I wish I'm the only child..  :(