It's a weird feeling.

Heys peepo! :) I don't usually get a chance to blog here but since I'm the only one at home, I CAN blog! :) *happy* They went out to takeaway dinner.  I don't really know what's the reason as in my family, we usually don't do takeaways but whatever it is, I'm happy to eat outside food instead of boring homecooked dishes.  Oh yeah, I did a terribly stupid thing today.  I'm supposed to be at work today but since I was shagged, I just gave an excuse of not feeling well so as to skip work today.  Stupid right?  :(  I regret it when I woke up @ about 12pm.  It's already too late anyw.  My aunt didn't even replied that sms of me not feeling well.  I wonder if she's pissed off by the actions, scary.  :s  I swear I didn't do it on purpose, it's just that at the moment, I didn't felt like going to work.  Work is great and all but it's the travelling & waking up that bores me so much..  I feel so guilty for my lack of responsibility alright?  :(

My head hurts badly right now.  I don't know why too, maybe I slept too long?  :x  Wasted my day by watching dramas & playing facebook games.  Work is much more meaningful know.  Guilty like shit.  D:  Oh well, I can only make up to my aunt by working more hours tmr?  Or maybe sacrifice few hours during weekends to work?  Ahhhhhhhhhhhs, guilty!

Also, what bothers me is not liking anyone.  It's a weird feeling, not to like anyone.  You see, usually when I like someone, I'll be constantly thinking about that person and whatever things that is related to him.  Sometimes, loving someone drives me crazy but it there's like something for me to think about.  Now that, I've stop loving, I feel weird.  It is the emptiness within me that makes me feel weird 'cause I've nothing to think about already.  Then, my mind gets clearer & I start to concentrate & feel more.  That may be why I felt scared during case 39, or I might possibly just be paranoid.

Ending this post here 'cause my head hurts.  I don't know what to do later.  *sighs*  Nevermind, ciaos!  :)