I've had enough.

I HATE MY HOME!

Awhile ago, I got bored & wanted to go out even since not a single person in my house is willing to entertain me & my lappy is really dead so wth.  The stupid, annoying part is that my parents refused to let me out.  How old am I already, omg?  I'm fcuking sixteen & no one will want to rape me or anything lahhhhh!  >:(  Of course I threw my tantrums like, it's just going out what.  If anyone should feel scared it's me, not them!  If I don't feel scared and I want to go out it's my own problem right?  If anything happens, I'll just bear the consequences luh, no big deal.  Did they really think I'm so dumb to go out myself, of course got ask friends!  :(  Why can't I be the only child so that I can get the computer & no one will snatch away my comp.  Thus, I won't be bored & wna go out when it's near midnight.  Seriously, life suckszxc.  D:  When I'm down & stuff, about half of the peepo I know is sleeping!  What the heck okay?  :(  :(  :(

I'm still wearing shorts & tee, all ready to go out.  Asked jq, pc & fadhli about when gp mac is going to open but they freaking did not know?!  Now, there's some maple conversation taking place between them & I'm in no position to comment.  I feel so emo-ish, knn manszxc.  I'm intending to stay over @ agnes' house but I don't intend to tell my parents.  It sounds like leaving home eh?  I don't care at all anymore.  They all suck for not letting me do whatever I want to.  Shit them & what do they know really?  :/

I'm also having conversation with amirah btw.  I introduced her some videos.  I think it's rathr entertaining but irwin say it's funny but not 'LOL'.  Awwws..  You may view them if you want to.

















If not funny don't come find me.  LOL.  :)

Which mac to go to lehhs?  :/

Love just won't let me walk away.

I've been wanting to blog all this time but my brother was beside me.  They have no idea I've a blogger blog.  LOL.  I can't blog with them around, awws.  I'm tryna to blog in proper english but somehow I don't think it will be successful.  :(  I went out with wx today.  Yayness, 'cause I'll be bored if I'm gome.  My lappy is laggy like crap and if my brother wanted to use computer, I've no computer to play facebook.  D:  My life is sad yeah.  Not to mention complications in love life.  I want to have a simpler love life like 'mo mo ren'(somebody), hehehes.  It's of course much more boring but it's less painful.  I tried to forget and tried to cast aside my feelings.  I tried to occupy myself with other matters but memories still haunt me.  Love just won't let me walk away right?  D:  I find it so difficult to blog now.  Keep pausing 'cause my siblings are sooooo nosy!

Should I go check my contact len tmr?  :/

Post next time when my siblings are NOT home.  I wish I'm the only child..  :(

Fickleminded-ness kills.

One thing I really hate about myself - being fickleminded!  D:

Those close to me, like Aishah & Syuhadah, should know that I can be really fickleminded.  This time round, it's about me deciding whether I should go to chalet a not.  From the start, as in, before the first day of chalet, I was really excited about going to the chalet.  Afterall, it's the last time 4e9 can have fun tgt.  Well, I've lost the I-want-to-go-chalet-damn-much mood.  I'm lazy to bring clothes, lazy to take mrt, lazy yet I want to play wild wild wet.  In fact, I still want to.  :x  I guess it's okay to give it a miss now, rainy season anyway.  After tons of sms-es with jq & ty, I've finally decided NOT to go chalet.  I'm sure everyone at the chalet is enjoying themselves & I could jolly well enjoy myself at home too.  It's about time I continue with endless japanese & taiwan dramas!  :D  The taiwan drama - hi my sweetheart, is v.funny!  OMGOMGOMG.  With Luo Zhi Xiang & Rainie Yang, that taiwan drama is definitely worth the watch.  It keeps me laughing most of the time.  LOL.  Love those two actors!  *hearts*

Jq just msg-ed me they're going to chalet already.  Awws, hate to be left out for such class outings.  Should I.. okayokay, I should not be fickleminded anymore!  :(  No class chalet for me.  I might be spending the day at jp with my sister, haven't really decide.  I hate decisions to the core!  D:

Back to my dramas, keeps me entertained.  :)  Excited for saturday with wx!  I still have not decide - black ankle boots or brown clutch bag.  :/  Heck care already, shopping just makes me excited!  :DDD

Ciaos!  :)