Behind that mask, behind that act

Sad die me. D:

2011-02-14T21:41:00.001+08:00

I'm like freakin' sadddddddddddd! D:

No, it's not about not having a valentine's day date. I'm just like a freakin' loner in school, at home & like anywhere I go. It sucks so much lahhhhhh. I miss those times when I can just hang out just for the sake of it & ACTUALLY enjoy it. I mean my new class is great & all, everyone is so sweet & nice but I feel so out of place. I can't find that sense of belonging & all my other friends like crazily busy with their own lifes too. I feel so down & blue & whatever you describe sad.

Hais.

Emo.

FML.

2011.

2011-01-07T12:05:00.000+08:00

I'm finally back to blogging. I can't say I'm busy for the holiday because frankly, all I did for the holidays are work & watching videos (mostly csi, watch from season 1!).

I'm officially out from jjc & starting j1 all over again at pjc. If you asked me, sure, it does hurt to leave all my clique in jjc and not to mention the need to adapt to a new environment won't be easy at all. I don't think I have a choice anyway, I just don't want to struggle in chinese any longer. I tried & I still can't score. Scoring in a lvls is a MUST so chinese is really not an option because passing is simply not sufficient to get me any place in university.

Okay, forget school for the time being.

I haven't really shop for quite some time, friends from either secondary school and jc are all busy with stuff. Also, falling out with some of my friends also decrease the times I go out just to shop/slack/eat.

A little wishlist for 2011:
1. Get matte nail polish. (Even if I don't use nail polish often.)
2. Get good grades. (I'm satisfied with Cs.)
3. Go shoppingggggggg! (I swear I didn't shop as much this holiday okay!)

Ehm, I've no idea what to add on to my wishlist already? Usually my wishlist can go on and on and on.................... Guess I already got what I need? But wants are unlimited. :)

Okay back to my videos! :)

Inspired.

2010-12-04T00:21:00.002+08:00

Watched ' Eat Pray Love' today. It's really hard to comprehend it but somehow it inspired me. Not the part about god really, but the part whereby 'ruins' can lead to 'change' & of course, some other points. In short, the movie really inspired me.

I feel that this whole year is a complete waste of time & even till now, when it's the holidays, I feel, well, alone. Yes, alone is the exact word. I don't go out often, not even to shop, not really catching up with friends and simply doing things by myself like, going to work, watching videos/movies, listening to music & playing lame facebook games.

I REALLY feel left behind, so disconnected with the world, the people around me. Even my facebook activities are very limited.

I don't feel very me.

However, I guess this just happens to people. I don't think it only happens to me, probably everyone felt this way once in a while but somehow they get over it and move on with their life. Easier said than done, really. At this moment of my life, it's like everything & everyone moves on except me. I'm not moving on, just stopping, in my own thoughts. Something like those scenes played in movies. Weird feeling but definitely true, that feeling. I just felt like ranting for a bit, hoping that typing all these help a bit. But blogging this doesn't really help yeah. I just feel like i could do more to stop feeling like this but I'm not exactly sure what I should do.

A heart-to-heart talk with some friends @ starbucks/coffee bean might just do the trick.. but I can't seem to take the first step to make this happen 'cause who are my true friends anyway? :(

Give me an answer.

2010-11-20T17:02:00.001+08:00

What happens when we're being ostracise by society for our actions and thoughts? What can we really do?

Does studies really matter that much?

Why do people even come to their own conclusions and unknowingly judge people anyway?

Why is human nature so damn complicated?

So what if we're different from the rest, those deem as normal people - those who study then work for the rest of their lives?

Why is society structured in such a way that I ~~can hardly breathe~~ don't want to continue breathing?

Am I feeling what I'm feeling now because I'm a teenager?

Seriously, I could use an answer.

Versus.

2010-11-10T23:31:00.001+08:00

Warning: I'm in a real fcuked up mood while typing this post. (It's some complicated fcuked up situation which I can't be bothered to tell you all.)

But I feel better after ranting everything out.. I don't know why the hell things end up like that. I faced a lot of "versus" in my life which makes me even more pissed off.

Friends that think of only fun vs. friends that actually care about others' feelings.

Friends forever vs. let me be your girlfriend for at least one day.

Damn wna see an idol, no matter what vs. i'm lazy to squeeze with a crowd just to see an idol.

I need cash & i'll work for it vs. i'm lazy to work so I'll stop spending $.

I don't mind retaining vs. WTF, I'll just go poly.

You see.. I have so many decisions to make in my fcukin' life & i don't really wna go about thinkin' about. I just wna go with the flow, just let things happen naturally but yet, in the end, I still have to do some decision-making. I don't ever regret any decisions I've made so far, I mean it's my choice what. But now, I just don't know.. things are going so so so wrong. Studying jc, studying a chinese subj combination might most probably be the stupidest decision I've made EVER. Now, I'm even doubting whether I've got the right friends. Wtf, fml.

I just want to bring back the old times, whereby friends standby me even if I give shitty tantrums, times whereby they know what NOT to do so as not to pissed me off, times whereby they're know I'm going to flipped if they don't leave me alone & even those times when they let me indulge in my emo mood. Why in the world is this not happening again? Yes, I'll be the most difficult friend you've to deal with.. so if you can't deal with my personality just fcukin' fcuked off from my life.

So anyway.................... the greatest decision would be:

Okay, tmr will be a better day, just live vs. *jumps off building*

Beauty overloaded.

2010-11-02T23:37:00.000+08:00

I've never never never seen a pretty boy in my fcukin' life before. FML.

He's so pretty ~

Total randomness. Going to do my I&R now. :/

It's still the same as before, these feelings.

2010-10-25T14:34:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we don't need answers 'cause actions speaks louder than words.

Maybe I'm thinking too much again but I guess it's better to keep a distance. No matter what I really feel, I prefer to remain status quo. :(

I've changed.. so much.

2010-10-22T17:35:00.000+08:00

Heys people! Okay, there probably isn't anyone reading this blog already 'cause I didn't tell anyone about the posts I made these year, especially since I'm too busy/lazy to give proper updates of my life & more or less, facebook accounts for the happenings in my life. Well, it's good to have a blog to myself too. Recently, I just feel like ranting very very much.. I don't know, I just have to reflect on the changes about myself. I know I changed & I can't really decide whether it's a good or bad thing.

One of the most MAJOR changes about me is.. Kpop, or rather korean variety shows.

For one thing, I really really hate korean language, it's sounds crude to me. It's not very nice to listen really, when I listen to it for the first time, it sounded very much like vulgarities and I just wanted to switch the chinese voiceover, even though the chinese voiceover sucks too. :/

I think it all started from "Hello Baby", my first time ever watching a korean variety show. My sister sort of introduce to it to me & the baby is so damn cuteeeeeeee that I just have to go watch all the episodes! :)

Mehhhhrongggg ~ (it means 'bleahhh' or ':p' in korean)

:o :o :o

CUTENESS OVERLOAD.

I was totally addicted to that variety show & I swear I watch it for about 10 times or so. Since SHINee is featured in that variety show, I search for other variety shows featuring them and thereafter, I kept watching more and more other korean variety shows. I learnt more about Kpop bands and stuff related through the variety shows and even started to like korean music more than before. Kpop is okay I guess, way better than the language itself. In the past, I was quite reluctant to listen to Kpop, for fear the language will turn me off and only listened to a few nice ones with catchy tunes. I know nothing about kpop bands, you could say I'm not interested.. but now, it's different.. I actually do like some Kpop boy bands.

Almost everyday of my life, I'm watching some korean variety stuff. Some major change huh? Currently, I quite like U-kiss, Mblaq, Miss A & F.T.Island(uhm, SHINee is okayokay too). *hearts* But I'm not as addicted to Kpop as some people i know & won't waste hundreds of dollars to see their concerts. -.-

MBLAQ! :D

Dongho from U-kiss! :D

SHINee!

I don't have pics for the whole of U-kiss, Miss A & F.T.Island. :(

Okay, enough about Kpop. Another thing I felt have changed is my attitude towards going to school. Seriously, if I'm very very late to school I'll just choose not to attend lessons that day. You see, in the past, I'll definitely try to make it to school despite the fact that I'm very late. They also doesn't have serious punishments of skipping school or being late, which makes me even more motivated to not just go school at all. Afterall, who wants to face a whole lot of bitches and fcuktards when they can be slacking at their comfy beds all morning? Seriously.. I hate school, it's a different kind of hate that is damn difficult to put into words. Or maybe it's the influence from my classmates? I don't know really.. :(

I have so much more changes about me, like not caring about my appearance as much, not throwing tantrums as much, not going to jp almost everyday........................ there's so much changes that I'm lazy to rant it all out anymore.

So I've changed, really.. but some things will always remain the same.

Pretty little things.

2010-09-17T20:12:00.000+08:00

OMG FML! D:

I've been seeing so so so many things online, I want to buy wtf! :( It's not like I'm broke or anything but I'm scared that once I'll start, I'll never stop! Not to mention the risks that seems to come in a package. *sighs* Taiwan sprees, runway bandits, modparade, forever21,osf....................................... too much to handle. :( :( :( Oh yeah, this reminds me.. I tried ordering twice from osf but I didn't receive any invoice so idk whether I'm that unlucky to always not get the items i want from osf or osf just simply sucks.

I know I said that I don't really have the shopping mood recently, like since late July, with school stuff going on that seems to eat up all my time & energy. But, oh well, maybe I'm back to shopping mode knowin' that I'm going to take the last exams in less than a week & then I'd be really done with J1, probably starting all over next year but who freakin' cares? :)

I swear I'm going to go shopping in every shop-able place in sg once promo exams end.

Holiday mood.

2010-09-01T18:28:00.000+08:00

Different moods, always.

Heys people, I figured that I'll do some blogging today, although i think the existence of this blog is like non-existent. Ironic huh? :)

I guess I haven't been blogging regularly and much of my posts are crappy & emoy, to summarise, most of the posts blog this year goes 'FML'. Well, today I'll spend like 8mins blogging something not so emoy & stuff(but no promises?) 'cause I'm waiting for ceo dream, which is some lame facebook game, then I'll start on my essays. 3 to be exact, all in chinese & due tmr. What a holiday.. :/ Hmmmmm, nbm, sort of used to it already. Life of an arts student in jc, it's just life I guess.

Yesterday I watched 'My name is Khan' & half of 'Dear John', it make me think about loads and loads of stuff, like conflicts, discrimination, family and much much more. Not to mention, crying a lot at some parts. It really makes me wonder why humans have to keep overcoming everything that goes wrong, like isn't death a much easier way out? But then, maybe death isn't that simple. Who ever knows what happens when death really approaches? Maybe we'll be living in another realm far worse than being alive, now.. isn't that living hell? Yeah, so I probably throw my sucidal thoughts aside & maybe find other ways beside death because life goes on, no matter what happens. I admit at this phase of my life, everything pretty much sucks to the core - terrible grades, unbonded class, subjects which i dislike, ain't exactly close to family members as before. BUT, at least I've gotten out of the mess of being love and stuff & having a few close friends is really more than emough.

Okay, so life have ups & downs.. this is totally a 'down' year, but so what? Life goes on..

Is it me that is changing or the world is changing?

2010-08-25T16:54:00.000+08:00

Today........................ sucks.

I really didn't mean to skip school today. I was all prepared to get scoldings from my teachers for not doing their work, I was all prepared to do econs group work though I've this feeling that there will be no outcome. I REALLY was prepared. Yet, maybe it's my subconscious self telling me not to go school. Woke up with my eye hurting, again. :( I slept all the way to 3pm before the stinging feeling is gone. Yes, I didn't go to school, I didn't get a mc, I won't be able to retake my graded assignment..

But..

Marks no longer bother me 'cause I'm going to retain.

Let the rants begin.

2010-08-07T17:20:00.000+08:00

I've been on facebook every single day without fail & seriously, what did I do with facebook?! It's like all bullshit lame games that is just a waste of my time when I probably should get mugging due to my previous terrible terrible results. :s But somehow, the thought that I'll retain anyway is really stopping me from getting all my work done. I thought I could clear some overdue assignments during this 6 days holiday but FML, I'm so wronggggggggggg.. I either watch tv or fb or go out or SLEEP. Sleep is getting to be a serious problem in my life BUT it takes away all the pain & troubles that I don't mind NOT waking up.

Conclusion of this post, I just need to rant 'cause I'm uber bored with fb & I don't want to start on my assignments. YAY................... not!

Life is full of bullshit.

2010-07-29T20:39:00.000+08:00

~~This term sucks..~~ Okay, actually this year sucks.

I'm going to make a list of suck-y things that is going through my mind, all that bullshit. pfft.

1. Retained? Poly? Promote?
2. Where the hell did all my money go to?! ><
3. Unfinished econs tutorial & there's case study nxt wed, 5%! arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!
4. I don't like the white specs guy but I keep seeing him, I don't like this kind of fate.
5. My friends created some love story for me when all their bgr r/s are from dramas. Wth, they just don't know what it is like to fall in love.
6. Note to self: I've no time for love.
7. I've no idea how to do my csc thesis, preparation of the 'A's but yet I'm not even sure whether I'll be able to promote.
8. I still want to take geog very very much. Retained & take a subj combination with geog?
9. I'm lazy to retained or get promoted. Can I go ITE or just go work?
10. I want to enjoy the last of gss BUT I'm so broke lah!

These are the top ten bullshit that is drivin' me NUTS! D:

D:

2010-07-16T13:29:00.003+08:00

THIS YEAR
IS A TURNING POINT OF MY LIFE.

Screwed up life of mine.

2010-07-07T23:07:00.002+08:00

On this very date,

I remember this date on 2007 when I'm having extravangaza, wearing that baggy orange tee, having fun & buying food to eat in the classroom. The games were so fun tooooooooooooooo. Yet, now in 2010, I've mother tongue a lvl oral & compared to mother tongue o lvl oral, it's just B A D....................

I want a merit. That's all I ask for.

Oh yeah, I didn't scored higher than an E for all my common tests so far................ :(

I'm prepared to go poly next year.

COMMON TEST ALERT!

2010-06-23T19:14:00.000+08:00

COMMON TEST STARTS TMR! D:

Starting with econs, which is tested tmr, I flipped through the econs file. Effort to studying right? :/ I want to maintain a good grade for econs but with this kind of effort, I doubt I'll even pass.. :( Eve of the start of common test yet I'm wasting my time on music videos, facebook & simply not focusing on studying.

I'm going to dieeeeeee, I'm going to dieeeeeee..

Is this just another mistake?

2010-05-24T00:47:00.001+08:00

~~"Can you send me to the airport?"~~

Courage, where are you?

Will you still be there for me if......................?

2010-05-14T21:48:00.001+08:00

Heys peepo. I finally managed to get into the blogging mood. I'm going to start off real properly, ehm, i think? :/

I'm supposed to meet Amirah & Hilary to take bus to school as usual but I'm late. But guess what, they were later. -.- We thought up of the terrific plan to be late FOR SCHOOL. When to grab some food/drinks from the nearby convenience store. I missed taking both buses with the interact club guy & ty..................................... but being late ain't that bad! :D

~~My cll test was disasterous. :'(~~ *skipskip* Had a 30min break before civics lesson in the hall. BORING. D: Some really lame talk about crime. Haven't we all heard enough in secondary school? :/ Seriously.............. Okay, csc next. China studies is really interesting but when it comes to essay........ I'M A GONER! D: Well, for tdy, the cher didn't use the visualiser & I could barely concentrate. You see, I'm such a visual person! *sighs*

Went to chiong my cll homework 'cause the night before I didn't have the mood to study at all or even do any assignment/revison. I hate chinese summaries! AND after another 30min break, the worst part of the day begin - GP. It's not about the subject, really. I love english much much much much much more than chinese BUT the teacher have to go & ruin it. I really cannot stand her at times. What's with the mood swings, stupid are-you-stupid looks & biasedness?! Goshhhhhh. >:( Next lesson was CLL & you really can feel the different atmosphere from gp lesson. CLL lesson was like heaven BECAUSE the teacher's good! I wrote 1 line for my essay test & she didn't scold at all & I appreciate that. I bet all other teachers would be callin' my parents already. :s

For the best part of tdy, NO PE! :D It's raining & we cannot do our 2.4 so they cancelled. Dammmmmnnnn happy.......... at least I'm not all sweaty when I go for the tea thingy. The tea thingy is one of the activities of my complusory cca - CLEP. It's actually quite interesting & requires damn a lot of patience but then again, great experience! :)

Okays, so lengthy post. I'm proud for my effort in blogging today....................... :))) Shopping tmr = excited! Ciaos~

Life sucks like REALLY, NO JOKE. But still..

2010-05-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

I'm looking forward to june holidays even though there's still common test & school stuff gng on. :D I'm so excited to buy freshlook illuminate, high cut sneakers/boots & go on that schl trip - shanghaiiiiiiiiiiii ~ my first time taking a plane knowwwww. Besides that, it's a good excuse to get $$$ from parents to go 'last min' shopping to buy 'stuff' for shanghai. If you get what I mean alr................... ;)

Other than that, FML.

It's been a long ago issue but I still have to say this. I'VE THE SUCKIEST GROUP MEMBERS FOR PROJECT WORK & I'M GOING TO FLUNK PW(FULL STOP)

Skipped pe this week. (Y)

2010-04-30T07:43:00.000+08:00

Heys, I haven't been blogging consistently since my jc life started. It really sucks to the core at times but at least there are people that whine and complain about school with me. Soooooo, maybe it ain't that bad? :) Well, conflicts again, like since when there have never been conflicts? There's always this someone that we'll hate. *sighs* Well, although jc life sucks and stuff but my friends from poly doesn't seem to get used to the school system there too so we can whine about schl tgt. Teehee! Guess those going to poly could use some good luck as well. :)

Anyway, I only can waste me time on blogging now 'cause I'm sick. Apparantly, lethargic with on-off headaches. I don't feel like going to the doctor. I just want a good breakfast. :/

I'm glad I skip school today anyway. Lessons today are kind of boring and really, skipping pe is damn tempting. I don't hate pe lessons, I just dread the after effects on pe - muscle cramps. :( Guess the only lesson that idw to miss is cll lesson 'cause the teacher is going to start on a new story & it's about fortune telling, like kind of cool. Maybe I should request for a make up lesson? LOL. That's so unlike me.

Oh yeah, I still haven't got rid of my shopping habit. I shopped like every week till I'm in debt with my parents. But guess what, I'm going to borrow another sum of money from them to go shopping this weekend AGAIN. FML, no? :s

Lady luck is not with me this year.

2010-04-20T21:13:00.004+08:00

I'VE

GOT THE

S U C K I E S T

GROUP MEMBER.

&

I'M GOING TO FAIL CLL & CSC. STUPID CLEP.

HOW THE HELL AM I GOING GET TO PROMOTED?!
HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO GET INTO UNIVERSITY?!

HOW, WHY, WHAT, HUH - IRRITATING WORDS FROM AN IRRITATING PERSON. These words are used like about 10 times or more every hr. Irritating or what?! >:(

DEPRESSED. DDD:

Target setting.

2010-04-14T19:58:00.003+08:00

Through endless of research for my project, I've learn that target setting is important. It's part of my project work but anyhow.. here are my targets.

GP: B

PW: B

Maths H1: C

CLL H2: D/E

CSC H2: D/E

Economics H2: A/B

My English standard seems to drop and gp doesn't seem that impt yet. Also, up till now I haven't pass any of my maths test. Reasons just become excuses. I will fail my next maths quiz, which is tmr. :( I've no faith in chinese related subj but still a pass is sufficient for promos. Lastly, individual work for pw is alr killing my brain cells so I'll be so so so satisfied with a B. As for grp members, I'll know next week. Hope it isn't anyone sucky.. :/

GP: A

PW: B (same as J1, do for one yr only)

Maths H1: A

CLL H2: B/C

CSC H2: B/C

Economics H2: A

This is impossible. *depressed*

P.S. If I get a C for H2 subj during A level, there will be limited uni choices! S A D !

Bored but I've loads to do.

2010-04-05T19:15:00.002+08:00

Hey, hi, yoz.. :)

Haven't got a chance to wear that heels. :( Wonder whether lp got a chance to wear her sneakers alr.. *ponders*

I'm bored now but actually I've loads to do. School assignments plus revision for upcoming tests. :/ LAZY. LOL. I went shopping with so many different people last week, happpppppppy but still.. more shopping please? :) I want a new school bag leh. I also want a new bag for going out one eh. I more more want that hoodie leh, the material so nice wtf, somemore 10% discount, double wtf. Oh yeah, I freakin' pass my chinese compo which I thought was just practice. Yay, pass.. & I actually wrote about shopping in my compo/proj work tooooooo. ;D Shopping this week? No idea. I'm so freakin' busy & I'm actually wasting time blogging, shoot me die me. o.o

THIS POST SO SINGLISH. WHY? NATIONAL IDENTITY MAHHHHHS, SOOOOO PROUD. LOLOLOLOL.

s h o p p i n g ;
the only thing that comes in mind. HAHAHAHAS, BYE! n.n

It's just impossible(full stop) :(

2010-03-31T22:34:00.003+08:00

oh my fcukin' mama, i'm going crazy over...

idkhowtosaythatthingyleh. :(

Letting my thoughts run wild again..

2010-03-29T00:00:00.001+08:00

I miss you, is that wrong? :(

I'm letting my thoughts run wild once again. & if you think it's because I'm free, you're so damn wrong. I've school from mon to fri, comes back around 4 plus or later. Wed is an exception since I'm cca-less but really, shopping is just as tiring or I'll be probably chionging some homework. Not to mention, assignments aplenty, tests never seems to end. Sat or sun will be working and the other free day is to complete weekend assignments. Duhhhhh.. :/ But sometimes I go shopping. *guilty max* I've no time to think about liking people & stuff but seriously, you can't just stop liking because you want to. This sucks.

Oh yeah, feel like using that $5 voucher from bugis before it expires.. hope I'll find the time.. & money. :x

Okays, I want to go print that damn pw & sleep. B Y E .

How to be happy.

2010-03-23T06:23:00.001+08:00

LOL. This is so useful right? I wna know how to be happy 'cause no free ice cream tdy & no shoppin' tmr. Plus those sad posts below are so not nice. -.-

Just completed editing some gp stuff online so me need to go school like now? Byeeeeee.. :)

I feel like a mannequin.

2010-03-20T20:41:00.004+08:00

Caution: This post is EMO-Y.

I DIDN'T FCUKIN' DO MY HOMEWORK TDY. TMR I'M TOO BUSY TO DO MY WORK. HOW DEAD AM I??? DDD:

I want that topshop gift card. :( When will I be able to stop my shopping addiction? For heaven's sake, I don't even wear the clothes I buy. They're like for display purposes only? :(

Me feel so emo MAX.
:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

Holidays are ending. :(

2010-03-20T00:12:00.001+08:00

Heys people, i'm blogging from my htc hp, cool anot? :) msn spoilt, i'm so bored with no one to chat but at least can access from hp, yayyyy! my siblings & i are addicted to some taiwan show on mobtv, distracting me from all my hmwork. :'(

Tmr shall be another homeworkin' day, no more shopping day? :(

MARCH HOLIDAYS! :D

2010-03-13T16:53:00.003+08:00

I'm ultra happpppppppppppy 'cause it's the muthafcukin' march holidays! :DDD

I've so many things I want to do this holiday that I just don't know where to start alright? I intend to go rebond my fringe tdy but alas, I'm not really in the mood to go out of the house. I just felt like lazing at home. :/ Furthermore, I really can't convince myself that salons from just anywhere will do a good job of rebonding. *sighs* Why can't my hair be naturally straight? :(((

I also thought of getting a job during this holiday 'cause I'm spending so much, esp. on food! When I was workin', I had more than enough to spend on stuff but now.. my pathetic allowance just makes life torturin'. I won't ever survive w/o good food & shopping. I can still stay hp-less(being uncontactable isn't all that bad know). BUT good food & shopping is a MUST. LOL. Leon, I want that telemarketer job but idk how to contact you & ask about the details, FML. :( Worst come to worst, I'll go work at 7-11's midnight shift? :( Wth is wrong with me, I shouldn't even be workin'! -.-

Okay, the working thingy just leave it to fate lahhhhh. Many tutorials & assignments for this holiday & actually I should be gettin' started on it but I'm so into the holiday mood so yeah, no schl stuff for tdy. :)

I want to go to 313 this week & IT fair tmr, anyone? o.o Seriously, I should try shopping alone, askin' people out can be so troublesome when I'm hp-less. :/

Okay, a-more-than-okay school day!

2010-03-09T23:32:00.002+08:00

Yoz peepo. I'm going to update with my new lappy, like finally. I've recovered from my fever/headache caused by dumb sore throat. Damn the weather much! >:( I used to survive w/o water for hours but now the weather can just kill me yeah? :( :( :( Really, due to this, I've to retake cll & maths test. FML rightttttttttttttt? :( I apparantly failed my maths 'cause I was headache-ing during the f.math test which only consist of 3 qns. How pathetic can I get? & I'm the o n l y failure in my class, wtf. :/ I didn't went to school on when the rest took the cll test so.. had to retake but I guess it's the same qns? I hope.. 'cause I'm so not good at memorising chinese & those free response qns just can make me fail or smth. Okayyyyyyyyyyyy, all this things make me unhappy but really.. today is more-than-okay! :)

Pepper lunch > Alice In Wonderland > Starbucks *loves* :D :D :D

First time going out with jj friends - Sihui, Jerlin & Sammini. They're great fun & not to mention, we gossiped a lot & I repeated my o lvl story for the dontknowhowmanytimesalready. LOL. I reached home around 10 plus with no mood to study for my tests tmr. How? I'll try to study soon ~~but I doubt so?~~ :s I'm sooooooooo looooooking forward to MARCH HOLIDAYS! Teehee! xP I also need to go shoppingggggggggggg, yes!!! Okay, I'm a shopaholic, so what? ;)

Abrupt end but.. Adios for now.. :)

Sicky.. D:

2010-03-05T16:52:00.000+08:00

I'm only posting 'cause I'm sicky. I miss using my dead lappy even if it's just 24 hours. Wth right? -.-

I'm going to keep this a shhhhhhhhoooooooorrrrrrrrrtttttttt post. Blahblahblah, I need a new handphone, a new lappy/compy, new clothes(idk why!), new chinese electronic dictionary, new earpiece & a new coloured contact lens(even if I still have my dailies)! :D Who will ever satisfy my wants? o.o me just want new things, fml..

Bye...... I told you it's goin' to be a s h o r t post.

P.S. Trail tmr...... a not? I'm sick whatttttt. :(

I always let my heart decide. :)

2010-03-01T18:11:00.002+08:00

Lazy to think mahhhhhhs. ;D

Okay, abit of updating to my not-so-happy-recently life. :( I'm down on luck & this sucks ttm 'kay? :(

Firstly, I've no bloody comp/lappy to use almost everyday even when I've 2 comp & 2 lappy at home. Reason? Lag or die. I've w8ed for exactly 30min to actually blog this post okay? >:( I've been pestering my parents for eons to get me a new lappy/comp & ytd I was so despo to use the comp that I'm totally letting them decide whatever brand or model. I JUST WANT A NOT LAGGY COMP/LAPPY, SO DIFFICULT MEHS?! D:

Secondly, jc life is real hectic even if there're lots of breaks in between. Don't ask me why, it just is hectic.. :/ My only free day is wed & the weekends. (ask me out! :D)

Thirdly, I just realised tdy that my dickies haversack bag seems to be breakin' down at the straps but usable otherwise. Hope it doesn't suddenly break down on me or whatever, I will sososo freaked out! :(

& there's just some other minor unlucky stuff happening but once in awhile I get abit of good luck toooooo.. :) I'm so looking forward to this coming wed 'cause I can finally cast those books aside for a few hours just to enjoy my myself by shopping. Yes, shopping! Forever right? xD I've econs, maths, gp tdy but guess what? I'm going to procrastinate till I FEEL like doing it! LOL.

Okays, update when I'm free. Ciaoooooos ~ :D

Sick & tired.

2010-02-27T18:59:00.001+08:00

I'm sick & tired of your rudeness. Why should I do things for you when you don't even appreciate or remember? Why am I always the one tolerating you and giving in to you? So what if you're my younger sister? FYL. D:

I'm sooooo pissed off > irritated > disappointed > sick & tired of this > ???

My feelings towards my family is getting from bad to worse to worst. *sighs* What will happen in the end? Will I totally cut off from them? :( Why am I feeling so negative towards my family anyway? I'm always having family problems, is it me or my family? It's so difficult..

Awws.. :( :( :(

Shooooot me..

2010-02-23T05:51:00.001+08:00

Did you ever had the feeling that something bad will happen?

I did.. & it happened, ytd. FML.

I'm blogging at such early hours, omfg. I just prefer this timing whereby my nosy siblings are fast asleep so I can type in peace. LOL. Tdy, I'll be having some trials for the relay events that my class signed up for. NOT excited for it.. AT ALL. D: In the f.relay thingy, we're suppose to carry like 2kg?! Wtf. -.- Yesterday finished my econs & maths tutorial anyhow-ly. Finally.. I had been dragging it for like about a week or so? Tsk.

Yeahhhhhhhhhhh I know, school school school = boring-but-sometimes-fun-but-but-overall-still-boring! xD

I want my sport shoes next week, who's freeeeeeee? LOL. Okays, nothing to really rant about anymore so byebye, till next post! :)

Hungry yet? ;)

2010-02-19T06:13:00.002+08:00

FOOOOOOOOD from renioun dinner! *droooools*

I MISS RENIOUN DINNERS LIKE MAD.
CAN I HAVE MORE RENIOUN DINNERS, PRETTY PLEASE? :D

Hahahas, the only reason I miss renioun dinners is because of those mad yummy delicacies lahhhhhs! ;)

Okay, apparantly blogging early in the morning. Time check: 6am. :o I've been busying myself with schoolwork, don't bother askin' me why.. I'm not used to being hardworkin' at all, really, seriously & honestly. I'm the open-book-read-two-lines-then-give-up-scan-abit-then-use-comp kinda girl. :( At least till now, my interest for all subj is still there, lingering but hopefully this keeps up. No interest = not studying for that subj. :/

My arms are aching slightly from pe yesterday so I'm lazy to type more. I'll try to update now & then. Bye! :)

Peek-a-tures! ;D

2010-02-16T01:07:00.001+08:00

Renioun dinner with Mother's side. Food was yummylicious yo!

Love this board :D still can't find my name though. :o

My og for camp. :) It's divided to 2 small groups during ice breaker games.

Min Jia & Glorence. I rmb I did this thingy so many times with Qian Yun till we perfect it. ;)

Janny, Qian Yun, Amirah, Han Wen & me. Fooling aroun before lights off.

I found a picture of Syuhadah doing forfeit on stage for the lst day of camp but I didn't save it. :( Wanted to post these pictures on my wordpress blog but it couldn't be uploaded..

That's all.. :) Waiting for cafe world now.. Adios ~ *waves*

Heard love.

2010-02-11T20:51:00.000+08:00

Okays, valentine's day & cny is here.. soon. :D

Valentine's day approaching just cause me to think about my pathetic love life. I also chatted with my new classmates about love life, guys, stead & other r/s stuff. We really shared alot & they kinda get really emotional over it. As for me, I also can't stop thinking about those fun-filled memories. Of course, those heart-breaking memories never do fade away. They're all trapped at some corners of my heart. But.. isn't it time for me to make new memories? Isn't it time for me to try a new r/s? Isn't it time for me to stop being fearful of r/s & just love the one I love?

Okay okay, enough of emotional rants. -.-

CNY = MONEY.
MONEY = SHOPPING
SHOPPING = HAPPY! :D

I'm totally looking forward to cny. Most probably wearing the topshop inspired dress that I bought ytd when I went shoppin' @ fep with wx ytd. :) I've sooooo many clothes but I just don't wear them & my mum is nagging me like totally mannnnzxc! Tsk.

Blahblahblah, dk what to post about anymore. Byeeee.

JJC orientation camp.

2010-02-07T13:18:00.002+08:00

Yoz peepo. Yesterday was the last day of jjc orientation camp. Those who know me, will know that I'm not a camp kind of person & hardly ever enjoy camping.

This time, it's different. Honestly, I was a happy camper! :)

I guess everyone in my OG played a part in it, I'm not really sure how to put it in words but w/o even one, it's just will be not the same. I guess? :/ Mainly, it was Amirah that make me laughed like mad almost everyday of the camp over silly matters. Also, Sf, Yang Fan & Cai Feng got me into the enthu mode during JJ night. LOL. Han wen, Jerlin, Janny & Qian Yun are also some of my new found friends. They are really awesome peepo. :) & my OGL was sucha a great person 'cause she's sick but still hang on, wanting as to have a good experience & all. Besides that, I still rmb that I was mad craving over green tea during camp & got emo for quite abit about not havin' green tea, hahahas. xD They cheated my feelings got anot. Said that they will be giving out coke/green tea/etc but didn't. :( But I got all better after playing wet games on the 2nd day. Actually all the games I played was fab! Mad mad love!

As for the pictures, I'll send them to Amirah next time & she most probably will get it uploaded in fb so do look out for it if you want to. As for some other memories of the camp, they are for me to keep. ;)

After camping, went to Dennis birthday party just for the sake of not going home. All the 'jj peepo' was there to tease me, wtf? :/ & yeah, I still owe Dennis his present. :x Went home soon after & slept from 6pm-11am. DAMN NOT TIRED NOW. LOL.

Currently waiting for lunch & maybe shopping with my sister later on. I'm blogging sooooooo little these days, wonder why. *ponders*

& why come I don't 'fa hua chi' anymore? *ponders more*

Oh well, bye bye for now. :)

Fcuk, I don't want to get addicted.

2010-01-26T13:43:00.001+08:00

What a bad day okay! :(

I wna go vivo with wx, jq, leon & whoever lahhs. I WANT TO BLOODY SHOP AGAIN AT VIVO'S F21! D: & really, it's been such a long time since I've went out with wx. Okay lah, not tht long actually. Whatever lah, I just wna shop tdy but I've got zero cash with me 'cause I intended to work till quite late. & if I meet them after my work it's just too late alr. *cryyyszxc*

Seriously..

I HAVE TO STOP MYSELF FROM GETTING ADDICTED TO SHOPPING!

Getting jae results tmr. How the fcuk will I ever survive jc when I'm addicted to shopping?! :( ~~Not motivated to go jc anymore, hope I won't go liaooooo.~~ Okay, a part of me still wna go. Arrrrggghhhs, why must I have a Gemini personality? Suckszxc.. -.-

Also, I've been sneezing from ytd night lah, wtf. Okay, I'm going to buy chicken rice for lunch now.. I think.

Byebyebye!

Hesistant about blogging. :s

2010-01-25T13:22:00.004+08:00

I really don't feel like posting but I've too many emotions within that I can't seem to share so maybe some ranting for this post.

Do you know how freaking annoying it is when peepo just jump to conclusions based of first impressions or whatever & conclude that 'she's that kind of girl', when it's probably the most serious misunderstanding that f.person made? Worst, they never changed their mind about whatever kind of girl you are, until much later, when they get to know you or smth.

Screw this category of peepo, so now to this group of peepo, I'm going to tell you what kind of girl I am..

I'm the kind of gal that talks crap whenever I'm in the mood. I'm the kind of gal that loves somebody but won't ever say it out. I'm the kind of gal that believes gals & guys can be best friends forever. I'm the kind of gal that love shopping & buy whatever she likes. I'm the kind of gal that is freakin' fickle-minded so changing my mind have nth to do with you, tyvm. I'm the kind of gal that loves music so don't stop me from blasting my music. I'm the kind of gal that will just ignore you when I'm in a bad mood. I'm the kind of gal that just won't pretend to be nice if I don't like you so live with it alr.
& so on..

I really hate these peepo, make me so pissed off. Grr. >:( Even for me, I dare not conclude what kind of girl, peepo are. These peepo that fcuking' jump to conclusions about peepo, might have a bloody good personality for all I know but really, this might be their only flaw.

I HATE POINTLESS RANTS! D:

Blahs, back to work alr. Oh yeahs, I want the song 'Fearless' by Taylor Swift, anyone? :/ Byebye for now..

Mad mad loved! :D

2010-01-22T13:18:00.003+08:00

Taking lunchtime to blog a little about ytd's shopping with lp!

It's been ages since I went out with her.. like maybe 1 year ago I went out with her? O lvl just kept us busy & stuff. We bought dresses together from far east by the end of the day. We shopped till all the shop closed, hahahas.. mission accomplished! *winkwinks* The time when we ate, we did alot of talkin' & memories just flashback to me. Lp abit forgetful wor, plus she younger than me. Funny, hehehes. I guess the only disappointing part was that f21's clothes couldn't fit us & also, ex. I like a tee from new look but it's cost $33.90, totally not worth my $. I like a long tee from mango that says 'get rich & spend money' but it can't fit me, wtf right? Somemore it's affordable. >:(

Besides that, I bought an essence concealer from..

Etude house! v.v

I couldn't get the pic of the concealer thingy but I love all their products 'cause the packaging is sooo nice, mad love! :D I don't know whether I'll be using much of the concealor but I hope I do 'cause it ain't cheap at all. -.-

I'm pondering over whether I should shop tdy, addicted right? Actually it's mostly window-shopping for me when I'm shopping alone (rarely!). Dilema-ing.. Anyw, I'll be far east-ing again with my pri schl fwen, yy on this coming sunday. That's like the 3rd time going far east for this week. Good or bad? :x Most likely going to post about my outing with yy in my other blog, if I feel like it.. LOL.

Okays, ending off here.. tatas! :D

Shopping addiction!

2010-01-21T12:39:00.000+08:00

I'm crazily addicted to shopping! For this whole week, I think I've been going shopping almost everyday. I hate to pay the price for my addiction, literally.. $$$ all fly away leh. :( Awwws, nbm nbm, shopping is still mad loved! :D

In fact, I'm going shopping with lp after work. Finally, someone who can go out late late to shop, hahahas. Well, I've many things to do tdy - shop, watch hi my sweetheart latest ep, watch finish your hand in mine & moremore. I don't think I've the time but I'll try? :x

Okays, back to work alr. Tatas! :)

Who is that one person that brings drama to your life?

2010-01-19T09:39:00.000+08:00

The above title is the questions asked by 987fm djs! I'm a H U G E fan for 987fm alr luh.. hohoho! :D

As the answer to that question, of course is him lah. Needless to say, I'll never reveal who he is so whatever eh. I know I'll never get to see him again but.. okay, this does not matter.

I'm eating breakfast from mac, mad loveeeeeeee! :) Well, I'm just hungry mah. Hehehes. I'm half-day-ing at work 'cause ltr will be going out yo. Okay lah, I wna eat finish my breakfast & start work asap yeahs? & oh yeah, i hope he never say those 3 words 'cause I still wna keep this friendship. :)

Byebyezxc, xoxo. :D

Lateeeeee.. sheesh..

2010-01-18T12:58:00.001+08:00

I'm uber uber late for work tdy & that just means I've to work till real late tdy. I can't do late night shoppin', oh fcuk. -.- To make matters worse, my non-asthi contact lens make work more difficult. Don't get me wrong, 'cause I really do adore my contact lens & god knows how much I've spent on contact lens but it hinders me when I'm working, well, slightly ONLY. :x

Tmr I'm going fep with Aishah & Sf, hopefully they don't make last min changes? :/ I'm still thinking whether I should work before meetin' them or just take leave alr. & fep, really? Again? Hmmm..

Currently, feeling real thirsty but I'm lazy to go get myself a drink so should I? Hmmmmmmm..

Geminis are just fickleminded. :(

Finally.

2010-01-16T16:28:00.001+08:00

Finally! Some free time for this week. I didn't went to work today mainly because going to work during the weekends can be extremely boring. I'm going to delete all the old programmes in my dead lappy 'cause I'm desperate to use it, LOL. My last try reviving it 'kay? -.-

Anyway, I love this quote..

Nobody should make a difference in my life & no matter what happens, I'll move on. I've learned how to & I should never look back.. Why should I let the emotions take control? No, it's never going to be that way again. It's okay to relieve those memories but that the furthest step I'll take.

Okay, am I being totally random again? :x

Back to uninstalling those programs, byebye all! :)

Leaving it up to fate.

2010-01-15T13:43:00.000+08:00

Lunching currently so a short short post.. Ljs once again, think I'm addicted to the cheese. :x Work started to pile up since I havent been working for four days so today is going to be hectic all the way till work ends. I'm kind of excited to know what god has decided for me - poly or jc. Crazy right? :/ Also, when is the last time I heard your voice?

Back to my lunch, nommmm-ingzxc. :)

Happiness.. really? :/

2010-01-14T19:15:00.001+08:00

Yoz peepo, I'm currently wearing my blue contact lens now. It's super blurry & fuzzy at the sides but somehow it gives a dreamy effect to the world I see, literally. :) I would be only using it for around 2 months just for fun & after that, time to say byebye to it. If I get into jc or poly, I'll still be usin' specs 'causes specs are the best afterall, LOL. I think I spent too much on contact lens, omfg? :o

Yeahs, about the jc & poly thingy, I've alr registered for the courses I'm interested in & I like all my choices so I'll be happy with whatever I get, I guess. O lvl results came as a surprise to me but surprise is a good thing? I'm so happy when I heard 100% passes for Physics! Serious! :D I think the only disappointing part was not getting a distinction for English but the rest of my subjects improved tremendously, yay! :D

& about today.. SHOPPING! :DDD

Well, shopping with wx @ bugis/somerset & managed to get my bag. *love* v.v The denim blazer is kind of ex but it's really nice & maybe I'll get it the next time I go to bugis. The same goes for the momo love dress, hahahas. Shopping always makes me happy. I lead a happy life now with friends, family(ignoring minor conflicts), good enough o lvl results, shopping, hanging out & etc.

Then again, is this really what happiness is like? I seem to be forgetting something..

Judgement day in less than 23 hours, oh fcuk. :o

2010-01-10T14:47:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling so lousy 'cause tmr is judgement day - r e s u l t s , if you don't alr know. *sighs*

I thought work could keep me occupied & not think about negative thoughts but really, it's not helping. Shopping might have help.. if it was a weekday. I'm not that anxious but a part of me is feelin' scared, idk why, I really don't..

Just shuddup & die pig! >:(

2010-01-08T22:11:00.000+08:00

Freeakin' pissed off! Rudeness puts me off, shyt you! Grr.. Fffffccccccuuuuuuuuukkkkkkkkk! *points middle finger*

Today was supposed to be a happy day, wth can a not?! I saw Mr Tay luh, I saw Rozz luh, I had fun pizza hut-ing luh. Once I'm home, all the happiness drain away. Okay, shyt die you! Hmph! :( I'm too mad to continue this post.

END.

You don't need no boyfriend. :)

2010-01-08T09:29:00.004+08:00

See, somedays you will love me. Then you don't, then you do, then you won't. Then you're here, then you're gone. This is just the fate of a part time lover..

Hotel room service playing on the radio, nice rhythm but no words to say about the lyrics. It's just so pitbull. What the crap me talking about? -.-

Anyway..

I'm going to see R O Z Z soooooooon! :DDD

She will be @ sg poly open house & the sole reason of going to that open house is to see rozz, hahahas, so crazy, nv see the school. Omgomgomg, so excited to see rozz yo. :D Yadayadayada.. Oh yeah, sherlock holmes ytd ytd was great! It's so amazing how the main lead can memorise his script lah, so many facts & stuff. It's basically a miracle how I managed to survived in those shoes for the whole day. I'm lazy to elaborate on that day actually.

Not so heart pain over the $130 alr but still.. abit heart pain? :/

Tmr tmr tmr = O lvl results! :o Not mentally prepared yet, ohhhhhhhmyyyyygodddddd..

Not again.. sighs

2010-01-06T09:19:00.000+08:00

A quick update before startin' work.

I hate killing me feet. :'(

I really need to go get a pair of shoes that won't kill my feet lahhhh. All my shoes/heels kill my feet till my toes are sooo scarred. Same goes for the vans shoes that I just bought, I so wna kill myself. :( I don't wna wear slippers my whole life can? Aiyoh. :/ This killing of feet thingy usually happens only to the right foot only 'cause apparantly my right foot is slightly bigger, wtfcuk. >:(

Okay, enough of me complaining. I'll be vivo-ing after work to catch the movie, sherlock holmes. Intended to go walk walk w/ wx but due to my work, she couldn't make it. Awws.. :( I guess some other time then. & even though it's only around 9am, I'm alr hungry for ljs for lunch, hehehes.. c[:

Gtg work alr, b y e b y e !

When will I learn?

2010-01-04T11:19:00.002+08:00

~~I really really like you. To the extent that.. I'm doubting myself.~~

How can I possibly be curious of something I once feared? Hm.

I'm currently at work. Not really slacking, trust me. I think I'll stop workin' after I get my pay & decide where to go, as in, poly or jc. Everyone is telling they rather be a private candidate than a ite student so ite is really not one of my options I guess. I'm really tempted to go jc 'cause I've no effin' idea what course to choose & really my slackness & plain laziness doesn't make it possible for me to graduate from jc even if I've the results to go jc, right? :/

Dilema huh?

Studies & results aside, I'm going out with wx this week. It's not confirmed but it may be our last chance going out tgt 'cause somehow after results, I think everyone will be busy preparing for school yet again. There's never a right time to say goodbye can? :(

Okays, back to work so I can meet syu ltr for lunch. Byebye..

Dreams, just tuned to them.

2009-12-30T13:34:00.000+08:00

Lunching right now. :)

Busy all morning travelling! :o Long story that you probably won't be interested in, so no elaboration on it. BUT something that I want to blog about. Do you know how strange it is when you're in a packed mrt & suddenly there's this random couple making out yet there's a hunk/babe right beside you? :x It's a strange feeling & i swear almost everytime this happen the person beside me seems to read my mind & start fidgeting. It's really really really strange got a not?

I'm not against public affection, I'm just jotting down this strange feeling.. for memory's sake? :/

Touched by an angel - sezari, playing on radio. Sylvia should win sg idol manszxc although sezairi did put in a lot of effort in the finals but still.. Sylvia is much better in terms of looks & talent! Also, I've been listen to radio almost everyday since I've started working & being a dj sounds easy 'kay? Mostly inspired by rozz, she's like a totally cool hot chick even though she's thirty! Okay, cool hot chick seems so oxymoron but whatever. :)

Tell me, does she look thirty? -.-

Picture taken from http://987rozz.files.wordpress.com/

Tuesday is really my emo day.

2009-12-29T12:53:00.003+08:00

Heys peepo, bored during lunch time.

2009 is ending.. full of events this year.

Life really doesn't stop for anybody.

I just forwarded chain msg to kill boredom but not helping much, wth? -.- I'm so shagged all morning 'cause shopping ytd really tires me. My shoes were killing me ytd so I just had to get new ones. I keep buying shoes/slippers against my will. It's either the shoe break down or kill my feet, waste of money can. :( Okay, so I'm really tired all morning, even though I slept in the mrt all the way to sembawang then alight the next stop. Keep yawning like no tmr too. Tiredness become emoness, why like that eh? :/

Currently receiving msgs with welcome 'cause of the chain msg, hahahas. So many 'welcome's in my inbox worr. o.o

Yeah, soooo damn random. What to do now? So many work but no mood for it. Ending work like 4 hours ltr.. will I survive today? :x

Feel like taking leave this thurs for no particular reason, should I?

Shopping keeps me happy, only shopping.

2009-12-28T10:23:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was probably one of my unluckiest day except for the escape theme park part. I don't wish to elaborate so omfg luh. :( I'll will update the escape theme park part @ feelthewords.wordpress.com later on today or maybe even tmr. Those who're interested can go read about the escape theme park thingy & really, don't read also nevermind.

I'm so stressed out right now 'cause I forgot to bring my hp out! D: I totally forget I was charging it. Muddlehead me. :s I've no idea how to contact my aunt 'cause she's always too busy to pick up her hp. I'll definitely have trouble contacting Jiayi, who I'll be going out with after work. Awwws.. feel like playing pool with classmates but working leh. :/ When can I stop working? I guess shopping is the only thing the keeps me happy at the moment. I keep having negative thoughts till.. even someone had to use shopping to encourage me. Rather funny actually. :) Maybe, just maybe whatever I'm doing is wrong but at least it makes me feel alive.. & if it's really wrong, sorry..

Anyway, Im.. soooooo borrrrreeeedddd offffffff worrrrrrrkkkkk. -.-

Okays, not that bored. Meeting syu for lunch/dinner, hope she's not late 'cause we can't contact each other. :/

Time, please pass by faster..

What's wrong with having fun? :o

2009-12-26T22:23:00.001+08:00

What's wrong with having fun? I just don't comprehend the fuss over having fun.

Anyway,

I want a lappy/computer for my

OWN usuage! >:(

The reason is the feel.

2009-12-24T01:04:00.000+08:00

Hehehes, went to fep with this girl after work. :)

I feel like sharing something today 'cause of the question she asked me a while ago. I used to hate guys like mad when I'm in primary school but that one guy changed everything. I can't even imagine what it would be like before I like that guy. It may be just a crush, just another stupid crush & I know everyone will tell me to get over it already but some memories don't just fade away. The reason? I don't really know but I just do like him. It's the feel. Sweet nothings & everything else can never substitute that feeling. If I could choose all over again, I know I'll still like him.

Yeah, go ahead & say lame or something. I can't be bothered. :) I can't believe I wrote the above paragraph. -.-

Xmas party tmr. Yayness, pressies! :D

Byebye for now.. :)

One emo love song is not enough.

2009-12-22T17:43:00.005+08:00

Work is going to end in half an hour! I'm slacking for the last half an hour but so what manszxc? :/ Carrying those boxes really wore me out leh. :(

Joke on radio - what do sheeps say during christmas? Answer: Meeehh-rry Christmas! Okay, random. ._. Anyway, I haven't got my pay yet. I'm going to ask for it tmr 'cause I'm dying to shop! It's been like one week w/o shopping, wth! >:( I reeeeaaaaaaaalllllllllllyyyyyyy wna go shopping.. Idc if I've gone shopping like so many times this holiday. Shopping is just a girl thing, my kind of thing. I've earned that money so why can't I spend it? Spare me from your lectures already, I do what I like. :) I'm going to watch hi my sweetheart when I reach home. So excited for it, hehehes. Ytd watched the latest episode of momo love, so niceeee.. *hearts*

I've nothing much to ramble on alr so byebye! :)

To someone who probably won't be reading this, even if that someone reads this, he/she won't know I'm talking about him/her:

I love the way you make me laugh. It's so motiveless, so different. It's amazing how that is possible when you are just a friend. I guess that's the reason why some people choose friends over lovers. :)

For your entertainment.

2009-12-21T11:22:00.001+08:00

Adam Lambert is so hot manszxc. Well, afterall gays are hot. c[: I'm so totally addicted to 'For your entertainment' by Adam Lambert! It's actually quite a sick song but I don't know why I'm addicted to it. Hehehes. :) Work is boring though, radio is keeping me awake but I'm not in the working mood lately. Maybe it's because I didn't receive my pay yet. *sighs*

:D :D :D
Addictive..

Gosh, I want my pay. :(

I used to be lovedrunk but now I'm hungover.

2009-12-18T12:37:00.000+08:00

I love you forever but now it's over.

LOL, lovedrunk playing on radio so lovin' that song even so long long ago song. Hehehehes.

This picture make me laugh yesterday till I was in a good mood.

I'm not fat.. I just think so but I'll stop thinking that way 'cause I believe somebody won't lie to me, there's no reason to lie to me anyway. :D Yay, that 'I'm fat' feeling is slowly but surely fading away. Wx & Amira will be overseas this weekend so no one will be going out with me this weekend. Sad got a not? D: Due to the boredom that is expected this weekend, I'll be working to while my time away. :( Ahhhhhhhhhs, sadsadsad 'cause work during weekends is not exactly my idea of fun.

Byebyebye yo.

Someday I'll know.

2009-12-17T11:01:00.002+08:00

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You cant have everything

Dont you take chances
You might feel the pain
Dont you love in vain
cause love wont set you free

I cant stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Dont care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just cant let go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear

But all these days
They feel like they're they're same
Just different faces
Different place
Get me out of here

I cant stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Dont care about all the pain in front of me
Im just trying to be happy

Oh, happy
Oh

So when it turns that I can see???
This rope??
Victim??
Dont say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Dont care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy.

Sorry if the lyrics are wrong. :/

I think this is such a emo song, why is it called happy? :( Okay, actually I know why, 'cause she want the guy & herself to be happy. The truth is, it's a good emo kind of song.. :)

I still think I'm fat, I'm going bonkerszxc! :o I didn't intend to eat today but I'm kind of hungry already, goshhhhh! Most probably meeting syu after work for lunch+dinner so I'll just wait until then to have a nice meal and that's all for today. No more food for me. I don't even know why I'm torturin' myself by not eating whenever I feel like it when I'm thin. It's the 'I feel fat' feeling. So suckszxc..

Work time, adios.

B.shoppin'.

2009-12-16T22:52:00.002+08:00

I'm bored whenever I'm home so all I do is watch drama, facebook & blogshop. I've watched hi my sweetheart latest episode, not that 'LOL!' leh. :( This just makes me emo-er. Now I've no idea whether I should purchase contact lens again. I've contacted the optician & there are dail disposable coloured lens! Sound pretty fun, idk why. :) I'll only know the prices tmr so I can't just decide yet. After blogshopping, I feel like purchasing contact lens online 'cause I feel it way way way cheaper! I want turquoise one!

Not my emo day but I'm emo, damn!

2009-12-16T16:39:00.003+08:00

D:

D:

D:

Emo 'cause..

megotmanyworkthatisnotcompleted.
megotnomoremoneytosplurge.
mewnatalktothatidiotbutithinkishouldnt.
mewantthathighwaistshortsfrombugisbutitdidnotfitme.
mecraveforcoldstuffbuticanteatitcauseofmenses.
methinkilikesomeonebutidontwanttolikeanyone.
mehavenoideawhetheriwillgraduatefromblss.
mefeelfatthoughiknowimnotfatatall.
meishjusttrynatobehappybutfailed.

mehatethemetoday.

Spacebar is not spoiled. I know I shouldn't bother people with my emoness, I'm not the only one with problems, I know.. but I can't help ranting on my blog.

One less lonely girl, yes me. :D

2009-12-15T13:37:00.000+08:00

Hi peepo! I'm not lonely, yayness! :D

Lunch time right now. Haven't been slacking all morning so I'm feeling kind of shagged uh. :/ Well, have been thinking alot lately for no particular reason. Since the 'O's, all people ever talk about are friends & relationships, especially relationships. Sick of that topic but somehow when we get started on that topic, it's neverending. We just keep ranting on and on and on.. and you get the idea right? It's painful to remember some things but sometimes pain makes me feel alive. Maybe I've been keeping some things to myself, maybe I've been pretending to be okay when I'm not but some things are better left unspoken, no? :/

My plans for next week are mainly shopping at the f21 that wx told me. :) Well, after christmas going out with Jiayi again to Bugis. We love that place! Hehehes. Xmas party next week too, will it be fun? o.o

$200 gone in just two days. :( Awwwws..

Bugis craze! hearts

2009-12-14T12:24:00.000+08:00

I'm so starving but I'm so lazy to go buy lunch. :(

Yesterday I went with Amira to Bugis to shop. The whole trip was v.full of talk about various topics and we even missed our stop on the way to Bugis 'cause the MRT cheated our feelings! It kept blinking at City Hall on the map thingy & we both naively believed it till later. Sheesh! -.- My first time shopping so fast and I think the same goes for Amira but we were happy with our many purchases. I don't really know whether I'll be using the stuff I bought yesterday but it's mad love! :D Proceeded to Iluma & we saw Jean Danker & Sezairi, lucky! :)

After work I'll be going to Bugis with Jiayi & maybe Agnes. I don't mind going again, there's just so many things I could buy at Bugis, hehehes. :) If you still don't know, I'm currently working, kinda bored. One hour passed since I've reached my workplace & I only completed filing for one file. Sighs.. :/

Maybe I should just skipped lunch & just eat more during dinner. Nothing more to rant about, bye! :)

Something that I just can't describe.

2009-12-12T13:23:00.000+08:00

I had the weirdest thought ytd, weirdest ever. I don't know why I thought about it but it's mad ridiculous & I'm not even bothering to blog about it for I don't even want to think about that stupid, ridiculous thought. I'm currently @ work though it's a Saturday but it's okay 'cause no one jio me out anyway. :( I've been given the keys so I can go to work anytime & end work anytime, how cool is that? :D I intended to work till really late & maybe go home with Syuhadah who ends her work @ 10pm but.. I'm sort of slacking already. Oopsy? :) I've tons of work to be busy with till Wednesday when my aunt will be giving me more work I guess. :/ Work isn't too bothersome but it's Saturday & I wished I was shopping/going out with friends/slacking at home & etc. That's what people do, when they have something, they want something else. It's just human nature right? :)

Okay, facing thousands and thousands of papers/boxes/files which are constantly reminding me to not slack & work. -.- Byebye all, whoever that reads my blog, which I don't really know who. Oh whatever..

At work, slacking. :o

2009-12-10T12:18:00.000+08:00

Yesh, I'm currently slacking @ work. I've no idea what to do okay? :/ It's like I've to do packing and stuff but there's not enough boxes. Sheeesh! -.- I've been dragging it for as long as I can till my aunt comes to settle it but she will be only coming on sat, what now? TT Bored to tears, ahhhhhhhhhs..! :(

I really appreciate having this job but sometimes I wished for freedom to do whatever I want on weekdays, to wake up at whatever time, go out at whatever timing & even just slacking at home once in a while would be just fine. Sadly, my debts to my parents & my shopping needs make work something neccessay since I need the cash oh-so-badly. :( Well, at least it's flexible hours for my work..

Tmr I'll be going to my cousin house for baking & maybe shopping. Should I ask her to pay for that wallet? Hehehes, me so bad. :) Okay, I had better find some work to do now, tatas! :)

Don't get all desperate, 'kay?

2009-12-07T19:56:00.001+08:00

Some people are just freaking desperate. I don't know why but I feel like LOL now. :DDD Whatever, just something that I shouldn't bother myself with. These few days, I don't feel bored or blank or weird. I just totally got used to the fact that I do not like anyone. It's cool, never felt like this for damn long. Probably four years back, this feelin' that I've forgotten during secondary school. It all started when I tripped & fall into love & never learn to stand up from that fall. Until now. :)

Oh yes, pimples got way way serious & decided to seek medical advice. Went to the doc's after work with my aunt. Less than 10 sentences from the specialist cost $213. SHOCKING! :O Hopefully, my pimples will get better. I'm even forcing myeself to drink plain water to get rid of the pimples! BENXIAOJIE H-A-T-E PLAIN WATER! :'( No choice, for my own good. I can't believe myself! D:

Work tmr.. filing! It's going to bore me like mad! >:( I feel like skipping work & go shopping instead. Awwwws, not v.possible 'cause I'm working too little hours to meet my shopping needs. Hehehes.. c[:

Work? Shop? *ponders*

Feeling out of sorts.

2009-12-06T14:57:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling out of sorts since I woke up. But I really don't know how to rant about it.

What's wrong with me? :/

Friends VS Lovers.

2009-12-01T18:53:00.003+08:00

This song declares that friends are way better than lovers. ^^

It's a weird feeling.

2009-12-01T17:15:00.000+08:00

Heys peepo! :) I don't usually get a chance to blog here but since I'm the only one at home, I CAN blog! :) *happy* They went out to takeaway dinner. I don't really know what's the reason as in my family, we usually don't do takeaways but whatever it is, I'm happy to eat outside food instead of boring homecooked dishes. Oh yeah, I did a terribly stupid thing today. I'm supposed to be at work today but since I was shagged, I just gave an excuse of not feeling well so as to skip work today. Stupid right? :( I regret it when I woke up @ about 12pm. It's already too late anyw. My aunt didn't even replied that sms of me not feeling well. I wonder if she's pissed off by the actions, scary. :s I swear I didn't do it on purpose, it's just that at the moment, I didn't felt like going to work. Work is great and all but it's the travelling & waking up that bores me so much.. I feel so guilty for my lack of responsibility alright? :(

My head hurts badly right now. I don't know why too, maybe I slept too long? :x Wasted my day by watching dramas & playing facebook games. Work is much more meaningful know. Guilty like shit. D: Oh well, I can only make up to my aunt by working more hours tmr? Or maybe sacrifice few hours during weekends to work? Ahhhhhhhhhhhs, guilty!

Also, what bothers me is not liking anyone. It's a weird feeling, not to like anyone. You see, usually when I like someone, I'll be constantly thinking about that person and whatever things that is related to him. Sometimes, loving someone drives me crazy but it there's like something for me to think about. Now that, I've stop loving, I feel weird. It is the emptiness within me that makes me feel weird 'cause I've nothing to think about already. Then, my mind gets clearer & I start to concentrate & feel more. That may be why I felt scared during case 39, or I might possibly just be paranoid.

Ending this post here 'cause my head hurts. I don't know what to do later. *sighs* Nevermind, ciaos! :)

I've had enough.

2009-11-28T02:39:00.003+08:00

I HATE MY HOME!

Awhile ago, I got bored & wanted to go out even since not a single person in my house is willing to entertain me & my lappy is really dead so wth. The stupid, annoying part is that my parents refused to let me out. How old am I already, omg? I'm fcuking sixteen & no one will want to rape me or anything lahhhhh! >:( Of course I threw my tantrums like, it's just going out what. If anyone should feel scared it's me, not them! If I don't feel scared and I want to go out it's my own problem right? If anything happens, I'll just bear the consequences luh, no big deal. Did they really think I'm so dumb to go out myself, of course got ask friends! :( Why can't I be the only child so that I can get the computer & no one will snatch away my comp. Thus, I won't be bored & wna go out when it's near midnight. Seriously, life suckszxc. D: When I'm down & stuff, about half of the peepo I know is sleeping! What the heck okay? :( :( :(

I'm still wearing shorts & tee, all ready to go out. Asked jq, pc & fadhli about when gp mac is going to open but they freaking did not know?! Now, there's some maple conversation taking place between them & I'm in no position to comment. I feel so emo-ish, knn manszxc. I'm intending to stay over @ agnes' house but I don't intend to tell my parents. It sounds like leaving home eh? I don't care at all anymore. They all suck for not letting me do whatever I want to. Shit them & what do they know really? :/

I'm also having conversation with amirah btw. I introduced her some videos. I think it's rathr entertaining but irwin say it's funny but not 'LOL'. Awwws.. You may view them if you want to.

If not funny don't come find me. LOL. :)

Which mac to go to lehhs? :/

Love just won't let me walk away.

2009-11-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

I've been wanting to blog all this time but my brother was beside me. They have no idea I've a blogger blog. LOL. I can't blog with them around, awws. I'm tryna to blog in proper english but somehow I don't think it will be successful. :( I went out with wx today. Yayness, 'cause I'll be bored if I'm gome. My lappy is laggy like crap and if my brother wanted to use computer, I've no computer to play facebook. D: My life is sad yeah. Not to mention complications in love life. I want to have a simpler love life like 'mo mo ren'(somebody), hehehes. It's of course much more boring but it's less painful. I tried to forget and tried to cast aside my feelings. I tried to occupy myself with other matters but memories still haunt me. Love just won't let me walk away right? D: I find it so difficult to blog now. Keep pausing 'cause my siblings are sooooo nosy!

Should I go check my contact len tmr? :/

Post next time when my siblings are NOT home. I wish I'm the only child.. :(

Fickleminded-ness kills.

2009-11-19T13:27:00.000+08:00

One thing I really hate about myself - being fickleminded! D:

Those close to me, like Aishah & Syuhadah, should know that I can be really fickleminded. This time round, it's about me deciding whether I should go to chalet a not. From the start, as in, before the first day of chalet, I was really excited about going to the chalet. Afterall, it's the last time 4e9 can have fun tgt. Well, I've lost the I-want-to-go-chalet-damn-much mood. I'm lazy to bring clothes, lazy to take mrt, lazy yet I want to play wild wild wet. In fact, I still want to. :x I guess it's okay to give it a miss now, rainy season anyway. After tons of sms-es with jq & ty, I've finally decided NOT to go chalet. I'm sure everyone at the chalet is enjoying themselves & I could jolly well enjoy myself at home too. It's about time I continue with endless japanese & taiwan dramas! :D The taiwan drama - hi my sweetheart, is v.funny! OMGOMGOMG. With Luo Zhi Xiang & Rainie Yang, that taiwan drama is definitely worth the watch. It keeps me laughing most of the time. LOL. Love those two actors! *hearts*

Jq just msg-ed me they're going to chalet already. Awws, hate to be left out for such class outings. Should I.. okayokay, I should not be fickleminded anymore! :( No class chalet for me. I might be spending the day at jp with my sister, haven't really decide. I hate decisions to the core! D:

Back to my dramas, keeps me entertained. :) Excited for saturday with wx! I still have not decide - black ankle boots or brown clutch bag. :/ Heck care already, shopping just makes me excited! :DDD

Ciaos! :)

The pain that no one can take away.

2009-11-18T23:44:00.000+08:00

I'm determined to blog in PROPER english!

Today is the first day of class chalet & I didn't went even though I've already packed for it. Sheesh! >:( It all started when my lazy maid wanted to iron the clothes I've packed at the very last minute(ytd). It was then that she found out the iron was spoilt! D: I was seriously upset about it & got really emo & stuff. Forget the iron part, my parents don't even care if I wear those crumpled clothes out. I was f.pissed with them & everybody. I was so upset that I cried. I mean, to most of you, this is like a trivial matter & you might not even mind wearing the crumpled clothes out or whatsoever. Likewise, if there's really no choice then I'll wear those crumpled clothes out too but what really disappoints me is my family. We don't really care for each other anymore. Everyone is just doing their own stuff, no communication unless neccessary(e.g. taking allowance from parents). I find it sad, I find it pathetic. However, after hours of crying, I realised it's pointless & there's no way to salvage this situation. Just let it continue.. this pathetic state of my family.

Somehow, they got my clothes ironed with a spare iron, which they were lazy to find ytd. Whatever. It was really too late & I felt really crappy in the morning. Idw why, probably due to the crying? :/ I was damn moodless & emo. I got out of bed like 4pm, with no intention to talk to anyone. Well, I did in the end, I had to eat right? -.-

I spent my day on my laggy lappy as my brother is back to mapling. I cannot use his desktop anymore! *bawls* I want to go saren's house play. LOL. I'm not emo anymore, life goes on. Money makes the world goes round. With the money saved by not going chalet, I'll definitely have much more to spend on other stuff. YAY! :D Actually part of me kind of wna go wild wild wet, hehehes. See my mood tmr, may go with jq.

I'm super duper happy 'cause at last I can rant on and on about my feelings. Yes, I've a not-so-perfect family but so what? I believe every family got their own problems so think whatever you want to. I love blogging! :D Anyw, I just receive some smses & it's sooooo suspicious. :o

Byebye, till next time! :)

'O's are going to end!

2009-11-06T21:53:00.002+08:00

Hello people.

'O's are going to end very very soon. I decided to use back blogger as my main blog but I still freakin' love my wordpress & onsugar blogs. I believe in future, I'll have trouble deciding which blog to actually blog in! Hahahas, whatever it is, blogger is still the best yeah? :D Just a temporay layout but I seem to like it truckloads already! OMG, I just miss usin' blogger so damn much manzxc. "3 I don't want to talk about the 'O's. not that I've done too badly or whatever, it's just that I'm super sick of the topic. It's always about the 'O's this and that so just freakin' stop those talk 'cause it's finally going to over 'kay? :)

Tmr I'm going to shop till my legs break for all I care. I want to buy loads of things & I hope my mum is in the mood for shoppin' with me tmr. Currently addicted to high songs & it makes me, well, h-i-g-h. LOL. That's what music can do, it's just weird in a super cool way & stop denying it.

I'm not into one of my crazy blogging moods so I'll just end off here. Bye. :D

I'll never have the guts to say 'I don't love you like I did ytd'.. or maybe i still love you?

A solution for blogger!

2009-08-22T13:01:00.002+08:00

I finally managed to post properly in blogger!

Onsugar.com is maintainencing so I thought I'll try my luck with blogger again. Miracle ain't it? :D I love my blogs! Despite being able to post, pictures still can't be uploaded! :( There's no subway for me today 'cause both jieling & me are so broke. Sad-ed. I feel like going out today lahhh, someone jio me out leh. :/

I would urged all of you to view everyeverything.onsugar.com. Afterall blogger's functions sucks, currently. Idk when it will be fixed so why wait. It's not worth the wait at all. I don't like waiting, it bores me. I thought it was true but save your lies for her seriously. Well, it's all in the act. :)

Hate blogger! D:

2009-08-16T15:28:00.000+08:00

Moved to http://everyeverything.onsugar.com.

Might moved back to blogger when it stops givin' me problems.

Boredom is here again.

2009-08-09T14:53:00.002+08:00

Hey peepo. I'm seriously bored. Can someone tell me what to do? ._. I know I should be revisin' or at least doing some homework but seriously, it's national day right? Who the hell would be in the mood for homework? It's totally wrong to do homework or revision today. Anyw, homework and revision will just bore me to death and as if I'm not bored enough. Gosh! I'm muthafcukin' bored lah.

Ytd was great at expo and changi! :) ~~It could have been better, I guess?~~ No, it was totally great.

End. ( & I'm still bored. )

National Day celebration.

2009-08-07T14:01:00.002+08:00

~~I'm going to write two lines for this post, wth right? :)~~

PCK, jwps, movie - up the hangover, charity bazaar, dennis no food, wx's hand auto-shiver, rt to borders sales. Randomised. Thanks, bye!

(edited from here onwards.. )

Okay, so I was being fickle minded but the movie was really fab & I'm just bloggin' about it for memories' sake? :x The show was about a guy gettin' married but before that there's this party to end off his singlehood in a sense. That guy went w/ 3 others to las vegas and apparantly they got drugged & the whole movie was about them retrieiving the memories that they've forgotten when drugged. In the end, the guy managed to get married. The language is damn vulgar & so many obscene scenes. It's sooooo funny, & juwika who sat beside me kept laughin'! xD Her laugh is kind of contagious. Dennis's face so funny at the obscene parts, LOL! My fave part was the baby luh! The baby so cute cute and what they did do the baby was hilarious manzxc! xD

It's worth my $6.50. I'm sure juwika, irwin, dennis, syukri, fadhli & saren felt the same way. Hope to watch 'up' some other time. Endin' here, bye! :)

Shattered and almost faded.

2009-08-05T18:33:00.001+08:00

I'm soooo going to give a proper post 'cause I'm rather free now. Completed most of my homework and stuff in between lesson time. I'm not a goody goody kind of girl but I just felt like completing my work in school.

Main issue for today, is that my eye was in fcuking pain. Seriously manzxc, suckzxc to the core! D: Woke up in the morning, realising that my eye won't stop hurting. Put eye drop before going to school but it doesn't get better AT ALL. Gosh. At the parade square, chatted w/ cl abit on what to wear for the upcoming NDP celebration at school. She thought 'polo' is a brand when it's just pole tee! LOL.

Next lesson was cs, it's okay I guess. Without amirah around, I was like super bored 'cause there's no freakin' entertainment lah. I misssss her lah!(as a friend of course!) Kenneth was like playin' games in the internet and smsin'. Seriously, boredom forced me to listen to the teacher. I mean, I can't do anything else what.

I was early for pe cause of early dismissal for cs. The teacher had to welcome the japanese visitors, so luckyy for me. Even the remedial ltr on was cancelled. *happy* Pe like nv really played the game 'cause me and the rest don't understand what greg was talkin' about, so yeah. &, aishah so bastard call me bitchy 'cause of the way I speak. Natalie somemore join.. wth? :x

Then it was SEL, I was going into emo mode cause of my bloody eye. Chinese lesson it got worse and like my eyes were watering or smth. Super painnnnnnn manzxc. I guess I was attituded or smth but it's my eye fault right? :) Anyw, I bluff aishah and nat that I cried & they believed. Their shocked expressions were hilarious. Sweet revenge? :) Yeah, in the end it's just a joke and what's so wrg with being a bitch anyw? :/

I'm lazy to carry on already. The rest of the day were pretty great besides the fact the my eyes had that dumb stinging pain. Good luck for those who've tests tmr. Bye! :D

P.S I think there are alot of errors in this post but I'm lazy to change so make do w/ my broken english/singlish. xD

You were always like that but somehow it just got worse over the years. I'm speechless over your actions already.

Whatever manzxc.

2009-08-03T18:21:00.000+08:00

My tagboard does not seem to be workin'. Scolding by teachers. Failing my physics test, again! Failing my cs test. Possibly failing english ca since half the class failed. Not able to score for chem ca though it's so fcukin' easy this time. No updates on j.dramas. I crave for expensive cookies but I don't have money to buy any. Chem homework and notes by tmr. Feeling lethargic but unable to sleep. Blogger givin' me trouble AGAIN. Wantin' to shop at bugis but I'm broke as usual.

Today is muthafcukin' wrong, why? ._.

Life's suckszxc & we all die. What's the point in livin'? Goshhhhh..

One night is all I want.

2009-08-02T23:25:00.001+08:00

Just another post, I guess.

My entertainer sleep alr. Awwwwws, no entertainment. Bored like toooooooooot. Pc ask me think of game name, like how I know only. I'm not wearin' my f.thinking cap! xD It's been damn longggggg since I think of a name for a game. &, my calculator lost?! tmr got test, shyt! D:

This is a fcuking stupid post with nothing whatsoever. Byebye!

我不能太靠近你，因为怕我爱上你.

2009-07-31T16:43:00.004+08:00

I seriously wanted to post some pictures in my blog but since blogger is giving me problem, yet again, I guess I dont have a choice.

How about some videos? LOL.

HAPPY TREE FRIENDS COOL RIGHT? :D Okay, I'm just super duper bored! :x

The '3 tests' day!

2009-07-29T17:47:00.003+08:00

Yesh, I've three bloody tests today! I'm totally glad that blogger is not giving me problems already but the functions still faulty. Despite the tests, today I'm in a effing good mood! Yoooohoooo! HAPPY! :D

First test was cs. It's like not really a test 'cause she gave as a previous worksheet to do. Well, careless mistakes here and there but I think it would be a pass? :x Anyway, I love the sweets she gave today. Chewy & the flavour like all come out, don't know how to say eh. It's just damn nice to me.

Next period was PE, I think my group was supposed to teach or something. However, because of an emergency call, no need teach! Hehehes! End up playing poison ball. I really didn't wna throw the ball 'cause I'm plain lazy, z. Kind of affected by sf for that moment of time. The stupid balls keep coming in my direction! One even landed in front of meeee, wth?! :( When it was the girls's turn to tio hit, I was abit like stoning but nth happen. Of course in the end got hit lah but also good. Why? 'Cause.. RAYMOND THONG REALLY SMILE DAMN NICE LAH! :D It's true luh!!! Syu agreees! &, nat too(initially, after she think think then changed her mind). Came to a conclusion that my future boyfriend must smile as nice as him! LOL. Syu say good requirement lehhhhh, damn funnyyyyy.

Chinese was slack-y, almost everyone was studying for emaths test. JunLong kept playing with my highlighter, the erasable one. Drawing the music thingy, quite nice leh he draw. LOL. Then emaths test, I thought I ws going to fail but I managed a just pass. Raymond get 4, my idex number siol. Okay, I know I know, raymond again.. -.-

Let's just skip to English CA. I'm soooooo going to die. Miss Linda will scold me. Omfgomfgomfg! :o It's tough, my answers just don't seem right at all. Stupid leh, why my english standard drop so much one? Boooooo! :( Raymond do like fast eh, awwwws.

Biology followed by emaths remedial, going through paper. Biology was kind of stupid because of OJQ luh! He found this piece of broken glass slide. Then on it got a buggg! OMG, it's super gross manzxc. Then I put it on jq, he got the bug on him lahhhh, I don't dare go near him. Stupid siol the bug, eeeeuuuuuwwww. After biology, raymond go liaos, oh manzxc.

Conclusion: Raymond is the cause of my good mood today, wow? :x
I think he knows that I've been using his name and stuff. Ltr he misunderstand? Gosh.

I really wna slack now, tatas! :)

Be happy.

2009-07-27T18:59:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYUHADAH! :D May all your lame lame wishes come true? LOL.

Lazy to post about today, too much stuff going on. End.

Whatever I do or say, it might be just another lie but I want you to be happy.

Who knew.

2009-07-25T17:59:00.000+08:00

Hey peepo! Blogger problem is better alr but the toolbar thingy is missing & this font pisses me off. When is blogger going to solve this problem? Arghzxc. Well, today I've wasted 2 hours of my life by going to collect some stuff from the blogshop owner. I ordered it last year so I didn't even rmb what I bought. If I knew it was some clothes that I won't wear, I won't have gone to collect luh. I haven't started with homework too, sianzxc. I'm dying to see someone, but it's more or less impossible. Sad-ed? :x

Tmr I'm going bugis w/ Agnes & of course, get some homework done after the trip to bugis.
That's all for this post, bye! :)

Downloading physics information.. ERROR.

2009-07-23T19:41:00.004+08:00

Blogger is not okay yet. Gosh! I've enough of physics for today. SS ca tmr & there's no one to motivate me to study. Raymond Thong never come to school, awwwwws. Randomised! :x I've nothing much to update about. Really & honestly & seriously, nothing! Hahahas, just trying to make this post look longer luh. Failed attempt? :) Wakakakas, byebyebye! :)

I know there's someone in a worse situation than me. I can't do anything but here's a little advice from me to you. Believing in something/someone helps.

Time will make you stronger.

Fcuk blogger.

2009-07-22T17:54:00.003+08:00

Blogger is so problematic. Can't post, wtf? I'm going for tuition soon, so just a pretty short update. I've had my 'O' level mother tongue listening comprehension just now. Hope that it would help pull my marks up! :) I've no idea how to do physics now & there's so many periods of physics tmr siol. How to escape, z! :x There's also geog ca which I'm not really studying for it since that chapt., I've alr studied during mid year examinations. Hope can pass that too. Anyway, today, it's like a good but also not good day. I don't really wna comment much about today. There's no particular reason, really. I'm updating links, so let me know your url so that I can link you! :)

Hate posting this way. Arghzxc! D:
Bye!

It's called running away.

2009-07-19T19:24:00.009+08:00

Hey hey you you! :)

Begin my day with me waking up @ 11am or so. I was supposed to meet aishah @ 1pm, I'm late as usual. We went to the library to study, like duh. However, she slack so much while I was able to complete my geog homework. What the__, who lazy now? Hahahas, she say @ home study liao, so no comment luh. Well, in the end went to 7-11 for her bread. End up w/ soggy buns, & I thought I had satisfy my craving for yam bun, z! -.- We decided to go ntuc then. Aishah got sooooo tempted after seeing the sushi & we train-ed to jurong east, imm for halal sushi. She say she like pregnant 'cause of her cravings mah. LOL. After she bought her sushi, ebiko, she say she addicted to the 'explosion' in her mouth & the soysauce! The children at the playground also make me laugh & think about my last time childhood. Nonsensical manzxc but like funny also! *laughs* On the way home, as in going out from imm, she bought ice cream. It's super funny 'cause she kena tricked by the ice cream man. Thank god I never buy horh? :) Bus-ed home by 99 since someone need to take precaution mah, hehehes!

I'm homeeeeee. Obviously right? I've completed two j.dramas over the weekend, cooooolness leh! :) Later do what leh? Hm, I think tuition homework & revison for humanities will keep me busy for ltr & the rest of this week. Not to mention, chem & physics sure will have more homework. What a draggggg! :( I'm lookin' forward to next weekend manzxc! :DDD

Ending.. here! :)

Runnnnning awayyyyyy...

I don't know what I want.

2009-07-19T00:18:00.002+08:00

Junkai, I think you're right, I don't know what my heart wants.

I really don't know what I want manzxc. It's seriously drivin' me crazy alr, shuckzxc! :x Okay, forget it, I give up. I'm not going to give two hoots about it anymore. Why waste my bloody time over unrealistic things? :( I may be in the wrong but that's the way it is. There is nothing I can do at all, at least that is what I think. *sighs* Life is so NOT enjoyable at times yeah? Well, tmr I'm going to study w/ aishah @ library, hope my homework will be completed by tmr.

Byebye!

Never say never manzxc.

2009-07-17T18:18:00.012+08:00

~~I tried avoidin' you today but you kept appearin' out of nowhere. I thought I'll never rmb it again, but I did.~~

Let's talk about today. I woke up as early as 5am so as to meet jieling & let her copy my ss homework(which is mostly copied from junyi). :/ I managed to did some copyin' of chem too. In the end, I didn't even rmb to hand up my chem & I forget to bring one of my ss worksheet. I had to went home to look for it & use it for remedials. Chem, I had pratical. Ms Wong said something that part of the marks will be included in CA & I'm deaddddd. I couldn't get the damn solution & ended up writing white ppt for almost all my observations. Soooooo deaddddd! D:

The above paragraph is super disorganised siol, z.

There's basically so much going on in school today & I'm so lazy to post every part of today. It would be pretty lengthy, don't ya' think so? Hehehes! :) After school, I hang out w/ jieling & syu. Syu is violent/angry when she have mood swings. & me? I emo when I've mood swings. My mood swing better right? At least never hurt peepo mah! :) We keep havin' conver on various topics. Syu & I both think that raymond thong's voice v.unique & his smile is *thumbs up*. Hahahas, what a cool conclusion but do I like him? Hmmmmm.. *wonders*

I'm lazy lazy lazy. End.

Say it again.

2009-07-14T21:53:00.003+08:00

Hi peepo!

Don't worry, I'm not moody right now! :)

Early in the mornin' keep listenin' to that song, so nice really. Free period managed to complete some of my homework, great right? Hahahas. *laughs!* The lessons today were pretty borin' maybe except mr yip's lesson? He good mood lah horh, then like say the 'crap, crap' thingy. LOL! Before english remedial like got alot of things happen wor. Something about syukri being so ... i-can't-find-a-word-to-describe-it! LOL! :D &, the raymond thong thingy :/ It's really not I write one luh, it's aiwei & her partner in crime, dennis & norman! I'm innocent sioooool! :(

I'm in the middle of doin' my bio homwork, that goddamn specimen ppr'08. I'm totally not willing to do section b manzxc, arghzxc! D: I'm so not used to writin' in paragraphs luh. It looks like I write alot but it's not exactly alot seh, wow? ._.

Endin' of here eh, byebye! :)

It's approval you're after.

2009-07-14T00:19:00.001+08:00

Ignore the previous post, tyvm.

I wonder what's happenin' to me.

Stop irritatin' me, you fcuktards! D:

2009-07-13T23:08:00.004+08:00

I'm super duper fcuked up RIGHT NOWWWW! D:

Why can't all of you leave me alone when I wna be alone? Why can't all of you just shut up when I ask you too? Why can't all of you read the atmosphere, the slightest effort would be appreciated know? Why can't all of you keep your big big mouth shut? What da' hell is the problem w/ all of you?! Arghzxc! DDD: I know I've no right to demand anything from you all & I can't manipulate you all to doin' what I want. I also know that my wishes are not you peepo's problem at all. BUT! I would REALLY appreciate havin' a moment of peace yeah?

I'm tellin' you ... I'm sooooo f.pissed off! Geeezxc! ._.

Homework! D:

2009-07-12T13:52:00.004+08:00

Fcuk blogger!

I've just posted & they gave me some lame error message. Stupid manzxc, arghzxc! *pissed off* Whatever it is, I'm so lazy to repost what I've said so forget it lah. I'll add blog song when I'm free, meanin' a day when I don't feel like homeworkin'.

Eventually, I've got a 2nd blog. (refer to previous post)
Webby: allthat-lalalas.blogspot.com

I've got to continue w/ homework alr, bye! :)

Dilema for the day.

2009-07-10T20:53:00.002+08:00

My sister have been pesterin' to make a blog. She doesn't know about this blog, I don't really like tellin' my life to family members. Reason? No idea! ._. I've been thinkin' about it & the only solution is to create a new blog to satisfy her but I'm kind of lazy to update that future 2nd blog! :/

Should I make another blog anot?

That's my dilema for the day.

Say bye to mother tongue oral.

2009-07-10T19:39:00.002+08:00

I'm over and done with mother tongue. 'O' level leh! I kept gettin' comments today that I was not nervous at all. Kind of lame, 'cause I was pretty nervous since I didn't really studied. In the end, I got lucky! :DDD The question is easy to me, can pass but not distinctions, obviously. Whatever it is, I'm glad it's over like really.

I've changed by blogskin! Just really random blogskin that I've found. The blog of mine is currently under construction so don't mind the messiness? :/ I've also chose to type in block, as in like paragraphs like what I'm doin' now. Well, find that typin' this way is much more suitable for this blogskin so, yeah. LOL.

I'm really in a slackin' mode but I'm still goin' to get some homework done probably later. Yes, yes, I'm procrastinatin' AGAIN but I really so wna slack. Emaths or chemistry ltr? Hm. *ponders*

Time to slack, ciaos! :D

Hectic week! D:

2009-07-08T20:30:00.002+08:00

Hihihi! :D

Ahhhhhhhhhhs, many homework due on FRIDAY.
No time lehhhhhh, arghzxczxczxc! D:

Tmr there's O level physics spa skill 3.
Tmr tmr there's O level chinese oral.
What the heck luh, stupid 'O's! :/

Takin' a little break now.
Off to do my ss homework soon, bye! :D

Shopaholic alert!

2009-07-06T19:16:00.005+08:00

Surfer's paradise havianas(whatever the spellin' is), LG small lappy, that 49.90 jacket, that keychain thingy, shorts & many many many moreeeeeeeee! :D

MY LIFE IS EXPENSIVEEEEE! c[:

As you can see, got many things that I wna buy.
Aishah somemore say I'm a shopaholic, how true.
Attempt to study failed miserably today, gosh! :/
I'm gonna complete homework ltr, hopefully can complete luh.
Met amirah, wx, yeeleng, junyi ... & many boonlay-ians/peepo I know too.

What a youth day manzxc.

Bye nowww! :)